January 20, 2017
I thought my whole day yesterday will end well. I thought I’ll be fine until I go to sleep. But everything was JUST A THOUGHT.
Now I’m thinking, why some time, the whole day is so good and the night after hays something bad happened.
I am effin’ tired of that.
My day in the office is just like before. Sit on my chair. Face the computer. Talk to my officemates. Nag how boring I am in this life. Nothing is new. Nothing is extraordinary.
Yesterday I went to Cjhay’s house. I’d stay there for two hours. It always feels like time is so fast whenever I am with him. We just talk, ate, make love; watch TV, cuddles for just two hours!!! I also find some time to tell him that I am mad at him because every time I’m going to call him he wasn’t able to pick-up it up. He’s sorry for he always left his phone on their house. Reasoning! I hate it. Many times I tried to have a break with him but I don’t understand myself why I cannot do that. Am I scared of losing him? Or I just I love him to the extent that it is okay to be a fool. I know I am being fool when it comes to him. And I know some time I will overcome that.
My mother and I had an argument regarding the laptop their purchase through Home Credit using my name, and now, it’s time for payment they can’t give the amount their purchased. And I hate it. We had an argument and even what happened in the past was come out. And I HATE IT SO MUCH! Even now, I’m still mad. I know there’s a part I am wrong but hays. Hays. I missed my father. *cries
