#jason c.

[bowiebond]

Jason being popular because he’s the basketball captain, he’s dating the head cheerleader, he attends church but still goes to parties (drinking but no drugs), and comes from a prestige family…but outside of that people don’t really like him.

And he spends so many nights laying awake, that thought churning in his head, that he wonders how Eddie has so many friends when he was such a freak. Yet Jason seemed to have so few that he could actually talk to about his thoughts, his vulnerabilities, hell, none of them had even been in his room because Jason fears they’ll see it and label him strange himself. Nobody knows his favourite movie or colour or what he does on his holidays with family, that he actually doubts his faith daily or is bored during services and only comes because his parents go and the pastor is nice to talk to, the closest confidant he has, and nobody knows he’s aceing everything but math, that it makes him feel like shit because his dad keeps reminding him he can do better.

Just…Jason watching Eddie all the time trying to figure out how he does it and getting so damn frustrated because he could never.

[bowiebond]

Jason Carver | The Dead Keep Running

“You failed her.” The clocks chiming was getting louder, bouncing around his skull, and he opened his eyes to look at it.

“You will never be perfect, will you?” Father Davidson’s arm came around his shoulders and like a trance, he followed his lead as he guided him towards the clock beneath the crucified son of God.

The world was warping around the edges, and he couldn’t tell if it was real or the tears burning along the rims of his eyes.

“You failed all of them, Jason.” He wanted to shake his head, to refute, because he tried at least. That had to count for something. “You will always fail them, again and again.”

He tried. He tried and tried, why wasn’t that enough? He had almost been perfect, that had to mean something, had to be worth something.

“It’s your fate.”

[bowiebond]

i loved your response to my autistic jason ask thank you so much. do you mind if i use some of your ideas? i'm trying to write some eddie/jason fics and the idea of jason's special interest being sharks is absolutely precious to me

The more the merrier! Honestly let’s make it a thing in Jason fics 👀 sharks is now just a Jason thing and I refuse to not write it in from now on 😂

[bowiebond]

idk where else to go with this because there so so few blogs that talk about jason but i have to spread my trans autistic jason carver agenda. do i have evidence? no it's just because i said so. also the shark watch he wore to chrissy's funeral. that's so autism of him i'm dedicating my life to getting that watch now.

I WENT AND REWATCHED THAT SCENE AND OMG HE DOES IM CACKLING

That’s so autistic of him. I bet his special interests are basketball and sharks. He only really gets to talk about basketball tho sadly, but I bet his room has a JAW poster, pictures of him with sharks at Aquariums and parks, drawings from when he was a kind, books about different kinds of sharks amongst all his trophy’s and NBA cards (👀 fuck it it’s going into my fic, sorry op, stolen skskks)

I think it would explain a lot about him too. The way he processes his grief; it feels pretty close to home, needing the space to melt down alone, plus his strict sense of justice, the need to take it into his hands when he feels others are not doing it right (*cough* ACAB *cough*).

His also pretty literal. He doesn’t cut corners with implication. Always has his hands in his pockets when not in use (hidden t-Rex arms I’m calling it okay—)

And he does not do well with change. I feel that. He feels very much like a boy who learnt how to mask young and flew under the radar for just being a “bratty kid” until he was old enough to learn better — probably grew up into a perfectionist with a bit of social anxiety due to always being the central focus of everyone around him but also learned how to build an ego from that to survive.

He’d probably also resent Eddie who is everything he’s not. I think Eddie has a combo of ADHD and ASD and he’s very much a freak. Doesn’t get cues, loud, hyper and always on the move. Jason can’t do that and he probably feels a deep resentment/jealousy towards the guy for it. If we’re going with the Autistic Jason POV.

I like it. I like it a lot 👀 thank you OP

[bowiebond]

Oh no Jason angst is being written I apologise 😬

[porterdavis]

Trump Moves to Replace Watchdog Who Identified Critical Medical Shortages

The president announced the nomination of an inspector general for the Department of Health and Human Services, who, if confirmed, would replace an acting official whose report embarrassed Mr. Trump.

The Purge on the Potomac continues unabated during the pandemic.

[kenacks]

Trump Moves to Replace Watchdog Who Identified Critical Medical Shortages

The president announced the nomination of an inspector general for the Department of Health and Human Services, who, if confirmed, would replace an acting official whose report embarrassed Mr. Trump.