Eun Jiwon: I Love You
//Requested by an anon! Hope this is fun to read! This is a lil too long, may have gotten carried away. Nonetheless, enjoy//
You and Jiwon are two completely different person. You get overwhelmed easily, you cared for people more than they do for you and when you loved someone, you loved. You never hesitate, you go hard and fast.
In the case of Jiwon, Jiwon takes time. He’s meticulous and he calculates everything in his life. He doesn’t get phased out by anything and when he feels, he tries to suppress.
So it didn’t come off as a surprise when you told him you loved him for the first time, only for him to purse his lips.
“I want to say it when I really mean it. It’s not that I don’t, but..-” he struggles to find his words.
You placed a hand on the sides of his face gently, “hey hey look I understand. I’m not pressuring you to say it, but I just want you to know that I love you,” you softly whispered, your hands still caressing the sides of his face.
He looks at you, thankful for your understanding but you could also see the hint of sorry in his eyes.
You knew he wasn’t ready to say it, but you can’t help yourself. You need to tell him that. Your love for him was filling you up and you felt like you could burst if you didn’t say it. Maybe it was his suaveness, or maybe it was the way he treated you. Or was it the way he made you feel like you are the one thing that matters in his life? Or was it the unexplainable feeling you feel spreading through you every single time you see him? You weren’t so sure.
After that day, you tried your best to not pressure him. When you text, you would use the heart emoticons to replace your I Love Yous, and when you’re with him, you try to not use the word love so often. You don’t want to pressure Jiwon into anything or worse, make him feel uncomfortable.
The morning was bright and cold. You were awaken by the sound of hard rain hitting the windows. You unwillingly wake up but smiled when your stretched arms tapped a warm body. You sat up on your bed, happy to see Jiwon sleeping soundly. You got up and headed for the kitchen, The weather called for hot chocolate and hot soup.
You switched on your playlist, setting it aside as you slowly prepare the ingredients you need. Your favourite pop sound played and you used the bread knife you are holding as a microphone whilst you slid from one end of the kitchen to the other in rhythm with the music.
Unknown to you, the clanging of the pots and your not so melodious voice stirred Jiwon up. He woke up and was displeased that you were not beside him. He figured you were in the kitchen. He headed for the kitchen only to see you in his t-shirt that were too big for you, most probably his sweatpants and your hair in the most messiest bun, doing the most ridiculous performance ever.
He stifled a laugh as he leaned against the wall of the kitchen entrance. The more he watched you sing and dance, the harder it was for him to keep his cool, It was too funny. But, he liked seeing this. For so long, he never felt this. What is this? As he continued to watch your antics, he slowly realised that this is what he wants in his life. To wake up to this, to be able to spend mornings like this with you. You weren’t even doing anything graceful but he couldn’t take his eyes off you. His heart wasn’t beating fast, but he felt relief, comfort.
How can looking at you like this make him feel like his life is complete? Is this love, he thought. He lost it when you cracked your voice trying to sing in the singer’s original pitch.
You jumped, startled at the sudden laughter, “how long have you been there?!”
Jiwon covered his mouth,”long enough. You should sign up for the audition at YG,” he says as he walked over to you.
You caught on to what he was implying and smacked his back playfully. “Anyways, good morning and here’s hot chocolate for you,”
He took it from you, drinking it, “this is good, thank you.”
Jiwon hopped and sat at the counter as he watched you cooked. “I know you don’t like mushroom soups so I made you chicken soup,”
You poured some onto a bowl and passed it to him. He shook his head. He pointed at his mouth, “feed me.”
You shook your head, “what a baby.”
As the contents of the bowl emptied out, you decided to wash the dishes. You walked away, only to be trapped in between Jiwon’s leg as he hooked his legs on your waist. You squirmed to get out, “babeeee, I need to do the dishes!”
He tightens his wrap around you. He took the bowl out of your hands, placed it beside him on the counter and held both sides of your face gently.
You weren’t sure what to expect but you were kind of nervous. You feel the heat spreading on your cheeks.
Jiwon looked into your eyes and you tried to look away, “hey look at me,” and you did.
“I love you,”
You felt your surroundings go silent, your heart racing so fast as if it’s gonna come out of your chest. You definitely weren’t expecting this.
“I know you were disappointed when I didn’t say it back back then, but I want you to know I mean this. I love you. I can’t imagine not waking up to see you. I can’t imagine not being by your side, laughing with you, making you smile. I want to see you dancing and singing everyday. Like today.”
You tried to say something, but you were too overwhelmed. You could only afford to look deep into his eyes. You know he meant everything be said.
“I.. I love you too,” was what you could manage, before Jiwon closed the gap between the both of you and brushed his lips gently against yours.