Apr 22, 2017
My sideblog is at ptsdkath. I don’t have about pages set up yet or anything, and I’m still not going to be on as much or post as much as I used to, but I figured I ought to let mutuals know the blog exists.
seen from Indonesia
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My sideblog is at ptsdkath. I don’t have about pages set up yet or anything, and I’m still not going to be on as much or post as much as I used to, but I figured I ought to let mutuals know the blog exists.
Note to self: food that’s easy on stomachs
-Saltines
-Bananas
-Soup
-Rice (plain rice, and brown rice is good for nutrition, rice crackers are also an option)
-Ginger (ginger snaps)
-Milk (plain, and chocolate is good for quick energy)
-Cottage cheese (can be spread on saltines)
-Toast without butter
-Oatmeal
-Lemon water (good for vitamins, hydration, and soothing stomachs)
-7Up
-Cooked vegetables (e.g. spinach)
-Black beans (note: for some people it calms stomachs, for other people it makes it worse)
-Yogurt (once feeling a bit better)
“Foods that are high in water, vitamins, minerals, and plant-based fats”
Why is this happening
(like, in my activity, it shows the past few days but it refuses to show anything between then and...249 days ago apparently?)
Does anyone know some food that’s easy on stomachs? I’ve been eating saltines, bananas, and eventually soup for the last few days, but I know I should be eating more than that.
It’s possible she switched and just isn’t able to move / speak
My mom apparently locked her door to sleep in this morning. She was supposed to pick me up at church but she never showed up and she wasn’t answering calls. My grandparents had to drive me home, and my grandpa is pounding on the door but she isn’t responding.
Cool I had 3 different opportunities to hook up with a guy and all three fell through because cis guys are complete flakes apparently. You’d think they’d follow through on plans better when sex is involved, but I guess not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I have OCD, OCPD, general anxiety, social anxiety, C-PTSD, possibly PTSD, severe chronic depression (idk the official term for this? but it’s severe and I’ve had it for 4 years now. ...come to think of it that’s pretty exact because I got it in April of 2013), BPD, misophonia and misokinesia and other general sensory disorders so bad I can rarely leave the house + can’t go to school, DPDR, and DDNOS hasn’t been diagnosed yet but I have really bad dissociation problems and dissociative amnesia and I have alters
I’m also genderqueer with really really bad social dysphoria, autistic, and I’m attracted to men which sucks because despite being attracted to them I’m finding that I’m liking them less and less. And I’m a vegetarian which limits my food options and is probably contributing to my physical weakness, and this isn’t as much of a problem really because it’s something I can choose to change, but it’s just...Unfortunate because meat is gross and I do prefer being a vegetarian and I’d get physically sick if I tried eating meat at this point.
Society sucks and money is difficult and I’m finding that I’m hating myself more every day. I’m not able to do all the things I want to do, letting go of stuff is damn near impossible and I get overwhelmed and upset by stuff I want to be working on (like my characters) because they are impossible to organize and I can’t focus on all of them at once. I’m isolated and feel super alone and worthless and unlovable and boring. My cognitive disorders are so severe that I can barely think (my special interest is about all I’m able to decently focus on usually--though even that’s muddled--which does not help with my feelings of self-hatred bc I get badly insecure about my S.I.s and if I had it my way I’d be able to never bring them up again because I completely despise being vulnerable), my executive dysfunction is so severe I can barely do anything and can’t move much
My go-to distraction is this hell site which just fucks me up much worse because holy yikes this is such a bad site!! Makes my BPD and dysphoria worse, and my obsessive thoughts can’t stop thinking about shit and my intrusive thoughts have fun with it all as well, and I’m constantly upset and angered by everything and just. bad site!! but idk how to stop going to it as a distraction, and I don’t want to leave all my mutuals