Keeping it real! Not all my before pictures were happy-wanna-be-plus-size model photos, actually most of those photos were not happy - they were extremely long photoshoot days in really uncomfortable spanx, sometimes I would be wearing TWO pairs of spanx in some of those old modeling photos, which was physically excruciating and torturous... Then you have me on days like this. I was with my verbally/mentally abusive "ex-boyfriend" going for a walk. He used to brain wash me into thinking that all I had to do for him to stay forever was lose weight to be physically attractive "like him", but did it in such a cute & charming way... He would relate with me on how hard it was to be overweight, making me feel validated and understood. He once told me, "doesn't it suck to walk into a room and everybody knows what your addiction is? " Sounds horrible, but actually he was right, that's exactly how I felt at 300lbs. He would say really motivating things that sounded dreamy and then love on me, we even ran together only to dissappear for days & weeks & not keep in touch. Him & I were on & off for YEARS... My beginning adult life, or entire 20s, were some really hard years, living in my old beleif systems learned in childhood. Living out the behaviors based on those belief systems was the only thing I knew how to do. Now, in my consciousness, I'm able I'm still learning to spot the LIE im believing, and make a choice whether or not to act out a behavior/turn to my vices/ distract. It's really hard sometimes, even after all my weight loss and after all the I've learned, and after all the books I've read these last two years, there's a choice in every moment to either believe in the truth or to believe the old lies... New brain pathways must be formed. Choose differently. Find YOUR truth. Keep believing the truth🌈 . . #drjoedispenza #joshperry #mitobraintribe #ketonesforfuel #ketones #keto #ketocook #ketocoach #selfcare #wholebodyhealth #guthealth #ketofind #eatwithketolifeco #ketolifeco #ketolifecolorado #sobriety #rewireyourbrain #intermittentfasting #if #iifym #domesticviolence #recoverytoolbox #selflove #holisticpsychology #plussizemodel #biggirlproblems #fattofit #run (at Lakewood, Colorado) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBVwQAqAHGp/?igshid=tiw5a66yyv6q
