#jotext

[diokyouran]

i can gradually feel my writing mojo come back and it's all been thanks to just... writing stuff without feeling pressured to post it?

like i always wrote for myself first because somebody's GOTTA get these words out of my brain (or they'll torment me on a minutely basis), but for a couple years there i felt like the only things that i write that would have "worth" were for other people

and like there's nothing wrong with that either!!! but maaannn did i get burnt out hardcore halfway through '23 (and all of '24 haah) on that mindset

idk how much longer it'll take for me to feel like i can continue the stuff i have published (absolution, cross the breeze, that fucking jojo wrestling au that still haunts me, etc) but i think i'm on the right track :>

[ihateyourmom]

I'm going to log off for a few days <3 doing a cleanse or somethin <3

[diokyouran]

my brother's been mentioning that he might just bite the bullet and make a tumblr and i'm all hyped if he does bc i can help him make a theme (or deck out the default theme)

but im also like... half wanting to change my own theme but..... 1. i'm rusty and 2. i still kinda like my theme... even if it's barely dio related

[diokyouran]

today is the day....

come later in the afternoon, my friends....

my twenties will finally be over

[diokyouran]

there is a downside to the whole "not feeling pressured to post stuff that i'm writing presently so i don't burn out" because there are like 5 WIPs for the same oc (wulf, you remember him) and they've all gotten to the point where they are driving me bananas and my brain keeps telling me "you gotta let these loose man they are wrecking the place"

the problem. of cours. is that not everyone has the full map of my brain wrt to him and his story so if i post something like oh i dunno

i'm inevitably gonna have to answer the question of "who the fuck is this guy. what is all this" and well frankly i'm not ready to answer that

[diokyouran]

idk why i'm so allergic to oneshots these days, like EVERYTHING has to be chaptered now even though i know 9 times out of 10 i'll lose steam

like i won't stop thinking about them but WRITING them is a horse of a different color....... fuuuck

[diokyouran]

i've got jjk (s1 and stopping at a certain point so i don't get spoiled for shounen slop saturday/friday/whenever we can manage) on in the background today and it really is funny how like i get distracted and stop watching but as soon as i hear ijichi i'm like 👀👀👀👀👀 right back on the screen

[diokyouran]

got sailor moon supers on rn and as someone who loves the amazon trio and hates the horse, it really does feel like this every time he shows up (which is. every episode)