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Daily Journal 2/9/15

FMLS90 Challenge will probably have to be done a couple days at a time when I have time. Tuesdays and Thursdays will probably be full for me.

I started school again so I'm having some trouble with my schedule and sleeping and stuff. I didn't really sleep well last night, so getting the energy to workout was hard. I didn't workout for the full time. Tuesdays and Thursdays will be pretty full days, so I'm not sure I can do harder workouts then. Maybe just walking in the morning. We'll see how things play out though. Friday is probably the best day to do more vigorous exercise.

Today was okay. Besides being tired. My bio class was good. And the rest of the day was spent being sleepy and making food for the week.It feels like Thursday already. I have work tomorrow and I have to make the announcement in front of the class about it and I always get nervous. I need to work out what I'm going to say. I dunno I'll figure things out. I'll feel better after the next few days are through.

I got invited to a friend's birthday thing which was cool. And I have Valentine's day plans which should make for a good weekend. :)

Mental health is good. Food day was meh. Not the worst, not the best. Exercise was alright. I parked my car farther away so I would have to walk farther and took the stairs up and down to my bio class.

I feel like I have more I want to say but I don't know what. I'm just stressed.

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Daily Journal -2/8/15

I took a break from the fmls90 challenge for a couple of days because the next ones had to do with what I regularly eat and I wanted to take pictures and I was at my boyfriend's house and I don't normally eat like that. I'm going to try to pick it back up tomorrow. (I started working on the entries, but I want to add photos)

Today was an okay day in terms of food and exercise. Not the best. Not the worst. Did grocery shopping and that sucked. Insufficient funds on the card my mom gave me to use. But whatever it worked out in the end. Meh. Mental health is okayish. Stressssssseedd ooouuutt though.

I realized how rough eating healthy at my boyfriend's house might be. It took me entirely too long to talk him out of having chili cheese fries for dinner one night. And even on the days we eat okay, it's not really how I want to be eating. I might bring some more veggies over. And floss. But that's another matter.

I'm so stressed about school starting tomorrow. And excited. Mostly stressed. It's hard getting back into a routine. I'm not sure exactly when I need to leave. I might have to wait to exercise until after school until I get into the swing of things and can do it before school. But we'll see. I packed a good lunch for tomorrow.

My schedule is the following:

M/W: 9:15-2 Bio (plant bio)

T/Th: 9:30-2:30 Chem && 3:30-7 work

Sat: 9-3:30 TV History (starts in March for 8 weeks)

Once I get used to things I should have time to exercise before school most days. My schedule is soooo much better this semester.

Wake up around 6. Have time to exercise, get dressed, eat breakfast, pack up, print my schedule and leave. I should leave around 8:10, get there around 8:40, be at the building around 8:50. Class starts at 9:15.

I get out around 2 and then I'll probably go home and make my lunch and do my laundry and stuff and then I'll probably study with friends.

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Daily Journal - 2/5/15

Today was a good day. Not particularly different than the last few days besides a work meeting, but I felt happier today. I ate pretty well except I had a couple cookies at the work meeting. Shouldn't have done that. But that's my own fault for not having a filling breakfast. I was too distracted cleaning my yoga mat and I didn't take the time to cook a good breakfast. I found my yoga mat though!! so I can try some yoga stuff! 

Besides the cookies, I had a protein shake for breakfast, some celery and broccoli at the meeting, and then I had half of an almond butter sandwich on whole grain bread with some strawberries and then for dinner I made breakfast. For dinner, I made a simple breakfast burrito. I only had water to drink today I think. As far as I can remember at least.

For exercise, I only worked out for 30 minutes, but I think I corrected my squats and tricep dips so I'm actually doing them correctly now (I hope). They're definitely more challenging now and my muscles are all achy. I tried to do more but I was too sore and I was starting to get some sharp pains so I stopped and tried to do some stretches. I think I twisted a little wrong when doing the bicycle crunches. I was trying to rush through everything I wanted to do before I had to go to the meeting. I'll probably just try to stick to stretching and light walking the next couple of days.

My mental health was much better today. I think going to a work meeting helped. I really love where I work. It's a very relaxed job. I feel very at ease there. Seeing work peeps for a few hours made me feel better. I feel more at ease about my relationship right now too. I'm in a 5 year relationship and I was starting to feel anxious and ..I dunno? stuck? I don't think that's the right word. I just needed some freedom. But I talked to him about it and we worked some stuff out and I've relaxed again now. I don't feel so anxious about it.

I didn't draw or study today and I do regret that. I need to study more and I need to get some drawing done. This is how I get rusty.  I think my mental state, being down and stuff, has gotten in the way.

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Daily Journal 2/3/15

In terms of both food and exercise, today went very well. I exercised for an hour today, and I think I exercised harder than I have the last couple of days. I noticed some things got a little easier to do which was nice (like sit ups and some other stuff). For breakfast, I tried making that banana based icecream. Which is pretty much just banana and cocoa powder. So that was good. For lunch, I made a teriyaki turkey burger and had some wheat thins and a cup of coffee. For a snack, I had a 1/2 cup of the quinoa salad I made. For dinner I had a salad and a piece of the chicken and spinach lasagna I made. I still want to lower my calorie count a little, but I think I need to ease into it or I'm just going to be hungry and miserable all the time. 

I was feeling down today so my mental state was not super great compared to the last couple of days. I got some studying done tonight and that made me feel better somewhat. I didn't really get to draw yet though. I've been meaning to for the last few days.

Shorter journal tonight because I'm too tired tonight. I want to study and draw and prep for school tomorrow.

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Daily Journal 2/1/15

Today went pretty well. I worked on cleaning my room up. I put more stuff on my bulletin board and got my white board set up in my room. I still have a lot more cleaning to do though. I walked for an hour today. I didn't realize my calves and legs would still be sore from working out the other day. I took a rest day yesterday so I thought they'd feel a bit better than they did. I still was glad I went though.

I didn't get any studying done which is disappointing. I really need to review some stuff before school starts up again in a week. I'll totally regret it if I don't. I get overwhelmed at school sometimes and blleehh.

I ate pretty well today. I had greek yogurt and toast and a banana for breakfast. My lunch and snacks included a salad, a piece of pizza, some leftover chicken and rice from yesterday and some chai tea with honey. For dinner I made chicken and spinach lasagna, which was pretty tasty. I made it with low fat cottage cheese instead of ricotta and I tried to load it up on the spinach. Still not the most healthy of dishes, but not terrible. I had water all day except for the tea and some wine with dinner. Will probably try to cut out the wine with dinner though since I don't really need it. I could've done without the pizza, but besides that I think it was a good day. I'm going to try not to drink any coffee until school starts again. I don't really need it. Or if I have coffee, make it decaf.

In terms of mental health, today was meh? but better than yesterday. I'm stressed out. I just feel crappy about myself But less so than yesterday! so that's a plus! I think the clouds really bring my mood down. The sun and blue skies really help. I think walking has helped and being outside. I also need to work on cleaning my house up more. I think when things are messy I feel claustrophobic and on edge. I feel better when things are neat.

I've decided one of my goals is to fit back into this black and white dress I have. It's really cute and I like it a lot. I think it'd look so nice if I could fit into it comfortably. I also want to try to work a couple of vegan or vegetarian days into my diet per week. I don't eat a ton of meat so I don't think this would be too hard. I want to draw more before school starts too.

My goals for tomorrow are to finish cleaning up my room, draw at least 1 thing, to exercise at least 1 hour, to eat right, to study at least for 1 hour and to send out that email I need to send. Tomorrow or the next day I need to make an appointment to get my cavity filled. I also need to pick a day to get my oil changed, and I need to go down to H&R block soon to sign something.

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1/30/15

I exercised a good amount today, but I ate more than I had hoped to. I've realized sometimes I eat when I'm not hungry when I'm with my family. We were raised with "family dinners", so sometimes when we have dinner, I'll eat even if I'm not hungry because we're supposed to eat together. But I'd like to stop that if possible. I want to be with them, but I don't want to just eat. I only want to eat when I'm hungry. I'm not sure how to get around this when my mom cooks without offending her. 

My plan for tomorrow is to make some slowcooker oatmeal tonight to have for breakfast. I want to walk or jog for an hour and do a workout. I've started to like how my muscles feel a little achy after I work out a good amount. Not like an overworked feeling. But I don't feel slouchy and ucky. I'd like to start using weights if I can. I'd like to work both strength training and cardio into my regular workout routine. I think I'm going to have a chicken salad and some greek yogurt for lunch. For snack(s), I'll probably have some white bean hummus and veggies or apple slices. For dinner I was thinking of having a baked potato and veggies and maybe some sort of protein. Perhaps beans or meat. I really want salmon or fish but I need to go grocery shopping.

I got school stuff done today so that felt good to work on.I still need to work on some other stuff tonight though.

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1/29/14

Okay so I finally typed out my weight loss goals more specifically and I added some rewards to try to help push myself. I also added some goals not having to do with weight numbers specifically. I want to start loving myself more.

 I started trying to lose weight a few weeks ago and I started running or exercising most days. I went down a few pounds and then up a few. But I'm feeling better. But it's still frustrating because I want the numbers to go down. I probably need to drink more water to be honest.

I feel sore after trying some new workouts the last couple of days, but it's a good sore.♥ Want to try some other new things too. I think yoga would be fun. I have a yoga mat somewhere.

Tomorrow I need to finish up application stuff for schools. Ugh. Boring stuff. I also need to study chem and bio some. Need to get back into school mode before school starts. I also need to try to work on art & getting back into that. So many things I want to do. Painting my room. Cleaning it would be a start. Art. School. Cleaning. Painting. So stressed.

I'm working on my depression too. I've been feeling super worthless and crappy lately but I think working out is helping. I've been trying to hang out with friends more too. I go through this thing where I go out and I dread being around anyone because I feel so crappy and terrible, but once I'm actually around people I just feel so much better and happier and I come home feeling better. Well depending on the people. But the people I've been hanging out with are amazing and kind and smart and I feel better after hanging out. Eating better and listening to music more and watching funny shows has been helping too.