#juan rambles

[monstersofsilence]

Smaaaaall emergency

MY PAYPAL HERE

getting right to the point but I need some money help

not a crazy amount I am trying to reach! mainly to help me to cover part of rent on my side. it has been quite difficult, to say the least, with job hunting and I am about to mcfreakin' lose it .w.

trying to reach $150 and nothing more. and just know, I don't care how much any of ya'll give me. you can give me five bucks and I'd appreciate. I'm not asking for much

so if any of ya'll can, I'd thank you from the bottom of my heart and love you to eternity and back c':

thank you and please spread this around. even that will help immensely!

MY PAYPAL HERE!

[monstersofsilence]

A... SMALL emergency ;u;

HEYA

uh

yeah

I am in a bit of a bind once more ;u;

this is more so regarding the internet bill. my mom, who I love and I know she's worried about me a lot of times, can be a bit overdramatic at times. and that time just happen to be involving the internet bill and she has asked me THREE TIMES and I have told her the answer where I wouldn't be able to pay it this week. I don't know what mind of answer she wants from me unu;;;;;

so

while I was at work, I thought about it and I decided to ask for anyone's help... again .w.;;;;

I only need to pay 70 dollars which isn't much, thankfully. possibly because me and my brother haven't downloaded much that would go over the gig limit

so

yeah

my paypal right here!

send however much you can. I don't mind whatever amount you send me

plus! as a bonus, and I know this isn't all too great but I was thinking on this, I will draw your character! pretty much like a mini commission c:

I'd feel bad if people send money and I couldn't give anything in return. I figured a small drawing gift would be something

be sure to tell me who you are if you do send some bit of money so I can draw something for you. oh! and, well, up to you whether through IM or through the paypal request thingy (I'm not used to this can you tell? ;w;), be sure to tell me what character of yours you want me to draw :)

and once more! you don't have to send me much! I just need to get around $70 for this week and that's that. please and thank you c:

[monstersofsilence]

some before and afters of my trolls!

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[monstersofsilence]

Bit of an emergency: if you can, help

Hey ;v;

I did this in the past and I didn’t want to do it again. I didn’t want to. Right now, I need some help.

Now, I’m not doing commissions and there’s reasons for that which I will explain:

I am not decent enough to wanting people to pay for something that isn’t in the quality of others around me. Don’t get me wrong! I do think I’m an okay artist and I know I have some things to learn here and there but actually charging people for getting art from me? I just don’t see that happening

And two. Even if I were to do commissions, it will be cheap. I don’t know how some do their commissions but most times, if I actually focus on a certain drawing, I can literally finish one drawing in a day and... I don’t think charging anything higher than... 5? Would be worth the money ;w;

To get to the point: Yes. I need money.

I know others are busy or don’t have any to give. I am okay with that. I have been struggling to get a job around the area I live in because for some reason, these places are willing to hire but apparently they want to hire specific people and it’s gotten to the point where I want to lose my damn mind especially when SOME are asking for a person to have experience when they are CLEARLY gonna teach them the ropes when they hire them AND SO IT DOESN’T MAKE ANY GODDAMN SENSE

u-u

Sorry. I try not to mention my problems when I’m on here. I always keep it at a minimum or if I just need to get something off my chest. But I generally keep whatever goes on with my life to myself.

Currently I am in a pickle. IF, and when I say “if” I mean if you can, it is possible, please donate however much you can. Even if it’s little. I am okay with that.

I just need to get around 300 dollars. If not 300 then 275 so I can at least have the exact amount to pay my part of the rent.

Here’s my paypal: [jrivas112]

Again! If you can, you don’t have to give a whole lot. I’m not asking for anyone to dump a bajillion dollars when I know full well I don’t deserve it ;;

If you can’t donate, feel free to spread it around. It would mean a lot for me. I know I have been on and off. I am sorry for that. I know I barely talk to anyone and I am sorry for that.

I need some bit of help. I applied to a job a while ago (for hundredth time ._.) and if that’s a no go, then my back-up is re-applying to the staffing agency... again. Even though I hate it and I don’t know if any of the places I went to, and that they forbid me to go back after a while, will actually allow me to work for them again.

I’m sorry for making this long.

Just to repeat: If you can, donate however much you want. I don’t care if it’s just a dollar. I’m not asking for much. Please and thank you

- Juan

[monstersofsilence]

something I have to remind about Nixina that I know confuses some =w=;;;;

kind of my fault since I never fully explain Nixina as a whole... or I guess simply .w.

so Nixina is an AI. artificial intelligence created by Jaisnt Rodnik (my troll)

was deactivated for a LONG TIME due to Jai just... neglecting his finished projects. I mean he has a problem with that. he creates a ton of weapons and just... let’s them collect dust

one day Nixina was reactivated BUT was brought into the real world with a solid form - literally having a fleshy body - though they are able to go in and out of any electronic device and still being an AI, even utilizing their AI use outside of electronic device

basically they still are an AI in the real world but... still being a fleshling. as to how they get hurt or whatever... I have not dwell onto that yet .w.

the only thing odd about them is that during their reactivation, and materializing into the real world, something messed up almost towards the end of their materialization where their left arm didn’t fully form. in which case they created their own hardlight prosthesis

IN SUMMARY: they are an AI. someone or something reactivated them and gave a solid form. a REAL body but still capable of being an AI still. gave themselves a name and is generally trying to understand basic emotion owo;;;;;

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MonstersOfSilence

Making a proper pinned post since the other one is a bit of a ramble

Juan/John/Pyrite (whichever you wish to call me!)

He/him/they

28 years old

My discord: PyriteOfSilence#4436

My toyhou.se: MonstersOfSilence!

This blog is purely SFW but I will tag anything NSFW or suggestive

I do have an nsfw blog. If you wish to know about it, DM me but only if you’re 18+ and please don’t lie about it. If you follow that nsfw blog and you’re below 18+, I will block you. No minors on that blog

This main blog, however, completely okay!

Just know that I will respect you and please tell me if I have done something wrong or if something needs to be tagged

That is it!

If you wish to ask me questions about anything, feel free to do so! c:

- Juan

Narratives:

Catalyst

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[monstersofsilence]

to anyone

just know that I am here to listen. whatever it is you can talk to me. even venting your problems to me, I don't mind listening

I may not have friends but I am always willing to be an imaginary shoulder for you to cry on. I love you all. each and every single person I follow are the many reasons I have stuck around here

just keep that in mind

I may have never talked to any of you but I know that you are all good people, with purest of hearts. yes, there's some terrible mold within the community

but thec rest of you make up for that. those still here or leaving the community. no matter what, you are all great in your own ways

I am here for you all

no matter what c':

[monstersofsilence]

ya know what? I've been finally getting motivated to draw as of late and I want to do more!

reblog with a ref of your character and I'll sketch them along with mine doing whatever (I'll have to think about it or just have 'em participate in my oc's activities .w.)

so please! send them in for me to draw :3c

even to those who have been shy to speak to me! I don't bite and I will try my best to draw your oc as best I can. I like making sure that I don't mess up on other's oc's uvu