#jubilu

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Me annoying the cat a time lapse

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Just went through hell and serious danger this morning

Had to call the police (they took forever to come and were useless)

What scares me the most is that I'm ok

What else can I stand?

I'm not religious but I feel like I'm being tested

How long can I bend until I break?

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When you spend 30minutes doing your makeup and the camera only get your lipstick

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Oh guys... I'm graduating

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A short list of my gay parents:

Louis and Lestat

Haruka and Michiru 

Touya and Yukito

You see, a couple of teen mums and a couple of teen dads, and as if life was a YA  book they are much more reliable and competent than my adult vampire parents 

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I know this whole week was just too traumatising and that I could have died yesterday but why don’t I just get over instantly?

I’m jumpy, and my stomach is twisted knots  

I’m terrified at every single noise and I’m walking around with my awl (long metallic pointy thing you use to poke holes on fabric) even inside my house

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So... my mother left, I have no fridge, no stove and no washing machine

I called the contractor to tell him he couldn’t bring food to work tomorrow because there is no fridge, he went berserk and we fought again

I don’t know if I want that man in my house anymore, I don’t like how he has been acting and talking to me

Anyway, today I cleaned the whole day, I’m so tired right now, so tired

But that’s fine

What isn’t fine is how sad I’m feeling

I feel like I had the longest adolescence ever, because it took forever for me to graduate, and now I have to be adult full time out of the blue

This year was so hard, finding a job, earning so little, fighting my weirdass brothers, accepting that my mother is narcissistic, the renovation of this 100yo house, dealing with bosses, workmates, clients, my dog dying and how hard is doing all this by myself.

Sometimes I just want to ask for a timeout, but I can’t

And sometimes I don’t know why I am doing all of this

but I haven’t given up yet 

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I was tagged by @babymyleopard (brigadinha 💚💚) to share the first ten pictures in my phone

I'll tag @cyanis-art @monicahall @ladykatsuyu @huzzahitsthedoctor and whoever wants to do it