#just dealing

[wistful-pigeon]

I have always lived an isolated life.  I am used to going a long time being unable to hang out with my friends.  But I miss the spontaneous adventures to the mall, the trips to craft stores.  Going to the park and seeing people walking by.  Creating memories.  It wasn’t much but I try finding joy out of every little thing I can.  But currently I know I am at a stage in my life where I have to Just Exist.  And I have to do it all, stuck inside this house haunted with ghosts of my very own self.

[perpetual-migranes]

*dejectedly poking at the ground with my stick*

I'm really tired of being a girl atp but like I don't wanna tell anyone bc what if I get fucking shot dead as a result also I lwk wanna die honestly

[hexdoll03]

Currently at my ma's for another 3-4 hrs. (Sis went out of town with her bf, so i was asked to come spend the weekend over) Sis texts me I can take some vodka from her room and some soda from the "mini mart" that's what they call their stock piled foods and such closet. Ma sees me and is like "why didn't she tell you yesterday!? Don't you have work tonight?!" Me: yeah! But in like 10 hrs!

We laugh but yeah she should of told me yesterday. Since I try not to drink on days I work. But I'm at my ma's and their are many memories here good and bad and I just can't be sober here... but at least I'll be able to sleep in my own bed tonight. While my cat will be a bit miffed that we're back home. Cause she definitely likes it better over there than our home, but eh what can I do? I'm living paycheck to paycheck these days. Can't really save money anymore 😮‍💨

[skinsaq]

hello, its been awhile friends

[j-banan]

Current mood: Major songs played in a minor key

[nicktionarys]

It sucks, but when my voice-mail inbox was full today and I had to delete some messages, I couldn't delete this one. It was a sweet little thing she left for me after work and I can hear the sadness when I didn't pick up, but the smile about seeing me later. I really miss that these days and deleting just makes it feel so final. I'm having trouble finding final right now.