#just effffffff

[thisdarlingluna]

Also fucking relevant to previous post.

So I don't like being pressured directly....

(because life and shit happens and I can't just turn on the art to do art things like I used to)

buuuuuuuuuuut

if I'm excited about working on something and even one other person is also excited about it....

it can help spark my brain meats.

[thisdarlingluna]

Had several drafts sitting around about how I've been feeling/ shit I've been dealing with since I got back from my trip and back into work. Pardon the rambling.

Guess I'm glad to have missed the worst of the shitshow but it was rough when the 60hr weeks started early. Even less sleep and less time for myself. A whole day gone and then either sleep or run myself into the ground trying to catch up on what my mom needs. No help from my brother and then he throws drunken tantrums breaking stuff and throwing things around. Been having plumbing and roofing work done on the house and that wasn't helping the sleep. I took a day off for a friend's birthday and the break was lovely but I felt so alone....weird even among my friends. Have barely had time for any of my games. Managed to get through the last destiny season. No time to draw.... or really no energy to pull anything out to work on. It's the not wanting to be home. The disarray that everything has been in since the pipes got worked on. Did start going to the gym and it's nice but dealing with crowds of dudes sitting on the stuff I want to use or not looking when they back me into the wall while I'm on the turf.... It's actually not so bad once I figure out the right time to go (which is early as fuck in the am and that will be easier when I get home at 6 instead of 7 after Xmas) it feels good to pick up heavy shit tho. The end of this holiday hell is in sight. Might get to travel for work next year. Maybe more sleep. Yeah sleep sounds good.