#just need to write

[qin-qin16]

I want to explore more the fact that Killer can use the reset and save button, so Im gonna write about it >:3

[a-shakespearean-in-paris]

I need to work on this with a therapist, but whenever something bad or upsetting happens to me I spiral--start thinking I’m the worst person in the world, I’m unlovable, etc. I’m upset a lot of things haven’t happened for me yet and I feel like I can’t live my life fully until I lose weight due to things I have been told throughout the years. I feel like I can’t be loved until i do because I remember being in theatre class for years and never being chosen as someone who was loved or in a relationship. I shut that part of me out because I didn’t think it was possible. So I wrote my romantic side on the page as a way to explore that. 

I don’t know why now but I don’t have a fuse anymore. I can’t hold it in anymore.

[bentnotbroken1fanfiction]

Plans for this next week.

1. Finishing/posting @okayshitbird 's HFA fic.

2. Editing and posting another part or two of my dark fic.

3. Reading submissions and judging a writing competition. (I really need to do this lol)

4. Working on my last two HFA's.

I am hoping to get back to my WIP's in March, so if you're waiting for the next chapter of Bruises or SITN, hang in there! 😁❤

[wildcardwriting]

Sky Zero: Prologue

[Katekyo Hitman Reborn]

Next Chapter | Sky Zero on AO3 

Summary: AU KHR universe. For nearly four decades, 99.99%  of children are born with a special power called “Iris”, a special power unique to each person. Known as an “Iris Zero” Tsuna follows a motto of ‘Minimum Exposure’ to survive. Until Reborn arrives and throws everything into chaos. Tsuna is not amused. BAMF Tsuna.

{Note: Hyper Intuition is NOT an Iris. Irises are completely unique, whereas Hyper Intuition is passed through the Vongola bloodline. The same applies to flames.}

Prologue:

When Tsuna was born, both the doctors and his mother were surprised.

The chances of being born without an Iris were less than one percent but he was. The doctors didn't believe it even the facts were staring them in the face, Tsuna didn't have the one defining the feature that all other children with an Iris had, the extra corona in his eyes.

It was a labeling that would haunt Tsuna for many years.

~*~

Prologue: All Seeing Eyes, Stupidity is Contiguous. 

~*~

By the time Tsuna started kindergarten, he knew he was different. 

Unlike his mother, and everyone in Namimori, he looked directly at the person he was talking to. He didn't look to the left of their head, above their head, to the side of them, or anything else, he looked directly at them.

It was strange, to say the least, and even though he wanted to ask why that was, he knew he shouldn't.

Don't speak. Hide. Hide yourself. Don't let them know.

He could see the warnings in his eyes when he tried to explain his mother once, that he wasn’t a “zero.” He didn’t know what it was but he knew, it was bad.

Every time some one else talked about “zeros” the world would darken in the same scary way other people spoke about dying, or suicide. 

It was bad.

So Tsuna said nothing, even though he wished, from the bottom of his heart to not be labeled a “zero.” 

He wasn’t a bad boy. He was good.

Really.

Next Chapter | Sky Zero on AO3

[problematicprocrastinator]

Sometimes, all the pain and the questioning and fear just doesn’t translate well from the thoughts in my head to the words on the page.

[crimson-miz]

  is it fucked up when your parent seems more enthusiastic about you winning at slots rather than about your actual interests/accomplishments? there were a couple of times it felt like he was straight up bragging to his friends about my luck, which is fucking weird because it’s not like luck is some kind of skill you can practice.  maybe this is why i’m so validation hungry jesus christ, i think the worst part is that getting all that rando praise made me feel great about gambling. thanks for the positive reinforcement dad&pals, now i can train to become the ultimate slot machine master and bring honor to this family

[shespeakssimlish]

I need a journal or something

I have so many feelings about the same topic that I probably wouldn't even know what to write. Has this happened to you: you used to be quiet, shy, not speak up when you were upset, accept the way people treat you ... But then found your voice and refuse to let things "just happen" to you... But then you get labeled as an angry person... How am I an angry person because I speak up for myself? Or is it because they're used to me being quiet and accepting. It's like telling someone they don't have a right to feel anything besides happiness. Because anger is a terrible emotion and you should keep it hidden. 😑 I have a headache now. Smh