#justademonintheireyes

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Kennie would never really //deal// with it. She'd start doing whatever she could to forget that it happened, texting him and leaving voicemails like he was still there. And when she couldn't do that, she'd bury herself in hunts and any other--

 —dangerous. .. anything. She wouldn’t want to remember. Until she’d come to terms with Nick never coming back. But she’d never cry. Maybe scream at the silence he left her, but she’d ever cry. She’d want to be strong for someone. Him or herself. My muse is dead. Tell me how yours is dealing with it.

That is absolutely not okay. I’m not okay. Nick’s not okay. Nick’s like, “Kennie bby.”

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justademonintheireyes replied to your post: justademonintheireyes replied to your ...

Dude I feel. But with Kennie cos it feels like everYONE writes her bettet than me. But hey maybe Nick acts younger BECAUSE of what he’s been through

DUDE. No one plays Kennie better than you. Like when I try to write Kennie's character I'm never sure if I get her down. Because I don't know all the headcanons about her. I don't know the deep secrets that make up more of who she is. But you do know that, or you're still learning things about her. You play the best Kennie, because Kennie is yours.

And perhaps you're right. I suppose a younger aged attitude could be a defense mechanism for things. Act dumber and younger to hide from the fact that he feels like he's aged a millennium on the inside. Or maybe he just dissociates himself from such older feelings because thinking about it hurts. and acting stupid and young is easier to do and it makes it easier to think positively for shorts amounts of time.

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justademonintheireyes replied to your post: WOW SUDDEN INSECURITY ON HOW I PLAY NI...

Sshh yer perf

THANK YOU BUT, I HAVE SO MAnY THINGS I NEED TO WORK ON WITH THIS WRITING BUSINESS.

LIKE I JUST THOUGHT OF TWO MORE THINGS I WORRY ABOUT WHEN I GET INTO THIS DUMB MINDSET. I WORRY THAT HE TALKS TOO FORMALLY, and I've started to try a little harder to make him talk normally, and it's actually pretty fun and seems to feel more like a human being such as himself would talk, BUT IT'S GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME TO ACTUALLY DO IT WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT.

AND HE DOESN't ACT HIS AGE. HE IS IN HIS LATE THIRTIES AND HE ACTS LIKE HE'S SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN THAT. GIVEN HIS EXPERIENCES HE SHOULD PROBABLY ACT OLDER. BUT THAT WOULD CHANGE HOW I'VE BEEN WRITING HIM FOR NEARLY TWO AND A HALF YEARS OR SO NOW. GOD THIS IS TERRIBLE.

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Dear Kennie (avengers au because we have become the au idek)

I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.

"Dear Kennie,While you are indeed one of my best agents...you're never allowed near my bookshelf in my office again DO YOU HEAR ME I AM NOT LETTING YOU NEAR THAT AND I'M NOT GIVING YOU FUEL TO THROW THINGS AT MY HEAD I AM YOUR BOSS END OF STORY DO NOT PASS GO DO NOT COLLECT $200.Sincerely, Director Song."

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I'm sorry but i really just see Kennie staring at Adrian dead in the eye and making some comment amongst the lines of "aren't you a little ray of sunshine"

And Adrian being like, "I know right?" because on top of being sadistic he's also got a massive ego when dealing with the topic of himself. Talk about how evil he is, "Hell yeah, bitch. I am." talk about how good he is, "Well I wouldn't say good, but I'm glad I gave you that impression makes it easier for me to literally rip your still beating heart out of your chest while you thank me for doing it." Because he's an asshole. You can't insult him because he gives absolutely no fucks. You wanna kill him? Go ahead and try. Or just go ahead if you're strong enough, it's not like it's a big deal if he dies. He still had his fun while he was around. And he will not apologize.

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justademonintheireyes replied to your post: Whoa there, Adrian. Chill the fuck out.

Hell I’ll play with Adrian. Which is now slightly strange to me because Adrian is the name of Kennie’s deMON FATHER

Adrian is also one of his alternate personalities.

But it's the actual demon that wants to come and play. And his name is merely his alias, because technically his name is actually still Nick. He just chose it because while he was torturing in hell he lost himself and his soul became much darker, obviously.

Adrian means dark one. He chose it because he felt it fit better than Nick did. Because who was Nick anymore, really? Not him.

Also I'm not actually sure what Adrian wants to do, but something terrible most likely.

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justademonintheireyes

#niCK ARGUING WITH KENNIE#He'd try to storm out and bAM INTOBTHE FUCKING DOOR HE GOES#and kennie would drop to the ground laughing like a retarded hyena

I won't lie. The argument would immediately be over on both ends because Nick would be rubbing his face and he'd start giggling before laughing so hard he snorted or something. Like he'd probably be dying over the fact he let himself forget that the door wasn't open.

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Before the year ends, I should tell you why i left, it wasn't cause I didn't- imsorryrentstolemylife. okay real talk, mAN I'M GLAD YOU DECIDED I WAS COOL AND WE BECAME FRIENDS BECAUSE YOU'RE ONE OF THE GREATESTPEOLPLE IVE HAD THE HONOR OF KNOWING--

--and I'm just really glad we became friends. Nick and kennie kill me every time but mostly nick because he is not a clever man. You are also one of my musical buddies and part of team angst and comedy and my mood lifts whenever we get to talk. 

Basically, i love you man and I'm sorry that qas a mini novel but there's sO MUCH I CAN SAY ABOUT YOU

before 2014 ends inbox me one thing you’ve always wanted to know or say to me and i have to reply to all of them

YOU WERE LIKELY ALWAYS COOL, IT'S JUST THAT I NOTICED YOUR COOLNESS THE SECOND YOU POSTED REPO LITERALLY THE DAY AFTER I SAW IT FOR THE FIRST TIME AND FELL IN LOVE WITH IT. Because at the time I didn't know anyone except for my sister, who was the one to show it to me, who liked it too. And so I was like, "A PERSON WHO GETS IT." And then there were the drunk shenanigans between Kennie and Nick and that was fantastic.

Then I actually got to know you past that and you were awesome. And nice. And beautiful and I love you so much. You coming into my view was a good thing because I think you are one of my first longer lasting RP friends on tumblr and I like that. I also like that we're musical buddies like fuck yes. But anyway, I'm glad you're still around. You make me very happy.

And Nick adores Kennie. Literally it feels like she's a huge part of his character development somehow. She's one of the few characters that is so important to him, that I can't see Nick ever being without her in some form. Like I don't care if they're lovers or just platonic besties. She's one of his four absolute soul-companions tbh and I like the idea that not matter who I'm playing with, even if I don't mention her, she's still definitely in his life in my head. They are just really good together.

AND THEN BACK TO YOU MY DEAR FRIEND. YOU ARE SO AMAZING AND FUNNY AND TALENTED AnD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. *nuzzles*