What? That didn't even make sense. Did it? I'm not really sure, it's not that.. but why would.. how would someone normally respond? Would someone other than me normally hesitate. Was it weird that I'm taking so long? What if I can't come up with a good answer, if I had one maybe it would make this pause seem less.. awkward?
Nope, nooooope. That wasn't the right thing to stay, shit look at the way.. I should have just.. how can people be so fluid with words, did they not think about the meaning.. whenever I do I seem to get the same look. It doesn't seem to matter how long I think or what I say, my words tumble out the wrong way. Ugh I wish I wouldn’t cause people to blink at me like that, or the smirks that settle into their lips. This is why I don't speak. Why I stay quiet.
Maybe if I.. no that wouldn't work either. But I could, or maybe they would listen. But the times I do ramble no one can follow along with the speed or logic. I'll admit sometimes my wires get crossed and I don't pick up what they are meaning.. typically it's weird slang or alternative uses. Why won't people just directly ask or state something. It's frustrating. It wouldn’t take much effort, mostly just spit out what you want. Don’t be cryptic. I’m not stupid I just struggle reading things...
Oh crap, did I miss something? Why are they looking at me weird again. Oh.. I didn't realize I was.. yup okay that was deserved. I think, I mean they could have said something. Why did they think I would clue in? I wouldn't have known otherwise. I hope they aren't upset, I didn't mean to. Maybe I should make it up..would that be in bad taste? Maybe it would come off worse even tho I don't mean it in a bad way? I.. can.. hrmm.. maybe I won't say anything. That might just be safer.