ALRIGHT SO REAL QUICK IM GONNA WRITE OUT HOW MY FIRST KISS PLAYED OUT CAUSE IM STILL SUPER HAPPY AND KINDA OUT OF IT SO WHY NOT
OK ALRIGHT LISTEN so i started because i made a bet that he couldn't beat me in a godzilla video game and that whoever lost had to kiss the winner
so basically he swept the floor with me (i won twice ok but bullshit mechagodzilla is super op) and i was trying to stall because i was super nervous and didnt know if i could get the courage to do it so eventually we turned off all the games and he kinda kept trying to set up for the kiss
and dumb stupid me kept getting nervous and laughed and sat on the arm of my couch trying to avoid his eyes
then he put his arms around my shoulders and had his face inches from mine
of course for like ten minutes i pretended he wasnt that close to me cause im really bad with intimacy
then he kept putting his forehead on mine and having our noses touch and i was so nervous that i kept fucking laughing
then i called him a liar as a joke (he absolutely hates being called a liar)
so he was like "call me a liar one more time" and i knew that if i did he'd kiss me
so i refused and kept laughing
then i said it and he didnt do anything
so i was like "haha, gotcha you're not gonna do anything" and then like a minute later he leans in and im like "alright fuck it" and i meet him half way and bam we kissed
then i laughed more and was like "yaaay hahaha oh man"
then he started laughing with me (he was laughing along the other times too but i hardly registered it) and smiled and was like "i love you so much, you know that right?" and i was like "yeah i know you big dumb nerd"
and he goes in for another kiss and like 2 seconds in i panic and pull away like an idiot
so i stood up and kinda started teasing him again and went off on a dumb tangent about how short i am and halfway through my rant he leans in AGAIN and like clockwork i fucking kiss back and he starts to kinda go at it (i tried to follow along but wow i was so nervous so i kinda just let my mouth do whatever i guess) and then he slowly pulls away and hugs me and we both start laughing like crazy and i could hear how fast his heart was beating and i was like oh man you are so cute
and i just went "i gotta get used to that" and he was like "me too"
and i was so embarrased for the rest of the night that i kept organizing my room (my defense mechanism for whatever reason) and i wanted to kiss him more but i was afraid too cause intimacy is really scary for me so i just kinda teased him about how him kissing me 2 minutes after me calling him a liar doesnt count as him doing something about it
so in short im a horrible person to kiss ok i will laugh for ten minutes before you even try to kiss me ok
but kissing is great 10/10
