DEAR KIM JAEHYUN
letter meme: accepting!
To. 재현오빠 김재현
How do I even start this? It’s been...three months since the last time I saw you? I honestly don’t know because, well, I’m trying to forget October 23, 2016...and yet I still remember it so clearly. It was supposed to be our one month anniversary but I just had to be a buzzkill, huh? No wonder my group gave me the title of being one of the “no fun” members. I always manage to ruin everything good somehow.The last time I saw you, we were both frustrated. You more so with how I was acting. I didn’t mean to hurt you that much but I guess I shouldn’t base off all my presumptions and instinct from romance dramas and mangas. I didn’t think giving back all that you’ve given me was going to be a bad idea. I thought it was the right thing to do because we did break up after all. Isn’t that what break ups mean? Breaking off from your “significant other”? I figured I shouldn’t leave with me any single thing that you’ve left behind but I guess you didn’t like that idea.Sometimes I just find myself staring at Poopie or Hyunnie, wondering what would’ve happened if I didn’t do what I did. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have any regrets because I do. A part of me regrets it so much. We couldn’t do all that we planned and gushed about. Hell, we couldn’t even last a month. Usually, it’s both of us who are stupid when it comes to arguments but I guess this time around it was just me. I’m sorry for hurting you as much as I did. It’s shitty of me not to feel as much guilt, anger, remorse, and sadness as you did. I thought of the whole break up so...lightly. Being in a relationship isn’t something I was new at but it was definitely something that I often failed with...but thank you, still, for the times you were patient with me throughout that short one month and before that.I hope the next time I see you it’s with a smile rather than an aching heart.
From. 홍의진












