5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust. Honestly, I think that comes hand in hand with love. If you can trust someone and let them -that- close to you and your insecurities, then you must love them on some level. It might not be romantic love, but that person is an important part of your life and you would honestly be distraught if they were not in it. Love is wonderful, but it is nothing if there is no trust. You would always be suspicious of other people's actions and what they are doing when you aren't around and what they mean when they whisper in your presence, etc. So, I'd definitely choose Trust. It creates an even deeper bond than Love without Trust.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
This is actually not a difficult question to answer since it pertains to my current situation now:
The person I care the most about. It might seem sappy, but it is true. Distancing yourself from someone that means everything to you is incredibly hard to do, especially when all you want to do is be with them, but at the same time: it is something I have to do. I can't deny myself the chance to be happy and they don't want the same thing I do, so...I'm giving them up. Who knows, maybe one day they will feel the same, but I can't let myself wallow in self pity in the hope that that possibility might manifest. They may never feel the same, so I need to at least be able to put one foot in front of the other and move forward and improve myself and my life...which is what I am doing. It is the hardest thing I've ever done and I don't imagine it will get much easier in the next few months. I'll probably be the worst I've been in a while now, but the pain won't be as strong once I dive into my future venture. It won't be as bad, still there, but at least I will have something else to focus on and a goal to work towards. Maybe I will meet someone during my adventure that will help fill that spot...maybe I won't. Time will tell. The only thing I know is that it will be -so- ridiculously hard...but I will persevere. I will not let myself flounder and I will not be that sad and depressed soul. I won't let my emotions ruin me. I will use them to fuel me and I will be stronger for them. I'll be with the person I should be with one day...I don't have to go looking for love. It will find me again. And it will be mutual and wonderful.
