[Loulou*di S3V1 L 3-4] Hana-Doll 3rd Season THINK OF ME:MONO Translation
Translation below the cut.
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Musumi's Colleague: Did you find him?
Musumi: Not at all.
Musumi's Colleague: Let’s search at the far end of the facility.
(Medical staff members run off)
Kaoru: Just why am I…? When did I arrive here?
(Kaoru walks down and opens a door)
Kaoru: There’s a garden all the way here? (hears some rustling noises, walks over to investigate) A teddy bear?
Toki: It’s my friend.
Kaoru: Is someone there?
Toki: Hmm? No, there’s nobody. No–body at all. It’s always been like that. I’m alone.
Kaoru: …Then, is it alright for me to be here today?
Toki: Eh? But…
Kaoru: If you’re not opposed to it, that is.
Toki: …But, but, it’ll be bad if someone finds me.
Kaoru: I won’t come any closer. In any case, I’ll sit down with my back towards you. That way, even if anyone comes through the door, they won’t be able to see you.
Toki: … I see. Mm, then it’s okay. I’ll let you.
Kaoru: Thank you very much.
Toki: …Say.
Kaoru: Yes?
Toki: Why are you here?
Kaoru: … I wonder why.
Toki: You don’t know?
Kaoru: I’m not very clear myself.
Toki: Hmm.
Kaoru: How about you? Why are you here?
Toki: … I don’t know either. When I woke up, I was in the car and I couldn’t move. It hurt, so I ran away.
Kaoru: Why?
Toki: I don’t want them to see me. They can’t ever know.
Kaoru: They can’t know?
Toki: If I’m in pain, they’ll be happy.
Kaoru: Happy? Just who do you mean? That’s…
Toki: My family.
Kaoru: Your family will be happy if you aren’t well?
Toki: Yeah.
Kaoru: No way…
Toki: That’s why… they can’t ever know. Nobody can know… the truth…
(Leaves rustle)
Kaoru: Are you alright?
Toki: Don’t come near me. I’m okay, I’m okay. That’s why, please, please, don’t throw me away…!
Kaoru: …….
Toki: Please, please! Don’t leave me…!
Kaoru: I’m right here.
Toki: … Your hand’s… warm.
Kaoru: Yes. I’m holding your hand. But, that’s all I’m going to do. You don’t want to be seen, right? Don’t worry.
Toki: … Mm.
Kaoru: I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.
Toki: (whimpers)
Kaoru: Besides, I won’t tell anybody. I’ll keep it a secret.
Toki: … Hey.
Kaoru: Yes?
Toki: Thank you.
Kaoru: Don’t mention it. I was just doing an imitation.
Toki: An imitation? Of what?
Kaoru: A long time ago, when I was struggling, some kind people held my hand. I really liked that.
Toki: Hmm.
Kaoru: They held my hand gently, told me it was going to be okay, and gave me sweet things to eat.
Toki: Sweet things? What kind?
Kaoru: All kinds. Pudding, cake, and macarons too.
Toki: Sounds tasty. I love sweet things.
Kaoru: Me too.
(Both of them giggle)
Toki: That sounds nice. If only I could have that too.
Kaoru: But…
Toki: Hmm?
Kaoru: That might have been a dream.
Toki: A dream?
Kaoru: Lately, I can’t tell just what are dreams and what is reality.
Toki: … Isn’t it okay for it to be either?
Kaoru: Either?
Toki: Mm. You get to feel sweet and nice either way.
Kaoru: (chuckles) You’re right.
Toki: Aren’t I?
Kaoru: Yes. Your hand’s all warm now.
Toki: Mm. The hurt’s gone.
Kaoru: That’s great.
Toki: I want to stay like this forever.
Kaoru: Yes, me too.
Toki: I wonder if this nice, warm feeling is all just a dream too.
Kaoru: Maybe it is.
Toki: Oh, that’s right. I remembered something. Wanna hear about it?
Kaoru: Of course.
Toki: I’ve always had amazing dreams.
Kaoru: What kind of dreams were they?
Toki: I was standing in the middle of sparkling light, being watched by a crowd of happy people. And, best of all, I wasn’t all. I was with the people I loved, and we were walking in that light together.
Kaoru: That sounds like a dazzling dream.
Toki: Yep. And then, I thought of something. That I could do anything. That’s when I realized that that pretty world was all just a dream.
Kaoru: What do you mean?
Toki: I’m a weak and pathetic human, so there hasn’t been a single thing I’ve been able to do right. I don’t even have the hope to wish for it.
Kaoru: Just because you couldn’t do it in the past, doesn’t mean you won’t be able to in the future. If you could do it in your dreams, then you can do it in reality.
Toki: Do you think so?
Kaoru: Yes. If you were really incapable of anything, then you wouldn’t even be able to dream in the first place. Dreams are proof that you know it in your heart. It’s precisely why you know that the possibility isn’t 0–you’ve seen that it could be done.
Toki: I see. It’ll be nice if it’s really like that.
(Sound of footsteps)
Musumi's Colleague: Over here!
Toki: (gasps) Someone’s here!
Kaoru: It’s okay. Stay calm.
Toki: What should I do? I don’t want to be caught, I don’t want to take that medicine anymore…!
Kaoru: Medicine?
Toki: It makes me feel all soft inside and I feel really good… I’m so scared of it! It makes me feel like I’ll lose myself!
Kaoru: Please leave this to me. Just stay and hide here.
(Kaoru walks over)
Kaoru: Um, excuse me.
Musumi's Colleague: You are…
Kaoru: I’m sorry for entering without permission. I got lost.
Musumi's Colleague: Shouldn’t you be in the Observation Room?
Kaoru: I’m done with the post-observation hearing, so I was heading back to the dorm. But I forgot how to go back while I was trying to leave.
Musumi's Colleague: Is that why you’re here?
Kaoru: Yes. It was dark and I couldn’t tell where I was going. I got scared, so I hid in the bushes.
Musumi's Colleague: So that’s how it is. You must have been terrified.
Kaoru: I’m really sorry for the trouble.
Musumi's Colleague: No, we apologize as well. We should have done a proper follow-up. Come, let’s head back.
Kaoru: Yes.
Musumi's Colleague: The car will drop you off near your dorm.
Kaoru: Thank you very much. By the way, well, about the–
Musumi's Colleague: If you’re referring to him, then rest assured.
Kaoru: Did you already find out?
Musumi's Colleague: There are many cameras in this place. There’s probably much more of those kinds of things around that you can imagine.
Kaoru: I see…
Musumi's Colleague: You had contact with him, didn’t you? Did you two talk?
Kaoru: … Just a little.
Musumi's Colleague: What do you think?
Kaoru: He seemed terribly lonely and it seemed like something awful happened to him. It’s like he didn’t want anyone to find out what really happened to him.
Musumi's Colleague: Do you think the both of you could get along?
Kaoru: I can’t tell. It was dark so I couldn’t see his face, and I didn’t manage to ask for his name. Anyway, even if we were able to meet again, I can’t say that I will recognize that it’s him.
Musumi's Colleague: Anything else strange you noticed? Did he say anything?
Kaoru: He said he didn’t want to take the medicine. He said it made him feel like he would lose himself. Um, I don’t know what exactly this medicine is, but, please, do you think you could hold back from administering it to him?
Musumi's Colleague: That’s–
Kaoru: I know fully well that I’m not in a place to ask something like that. But I think he was genuinely afraid. It wasn’t for show.
Musumi's Colleague: (sighs) I understand. We will take proper action.
Kaoru: Thank you very much.
Musumi's Colleague: Leave the rest to us. You should head back to the dorm. The security guard over there will see you to your vehicle.
Kaoru: Alright. Then, I’ll take my leave.
(Kaoru leaves. The medical staff makes a call)
Musumi's Colleague: Please send the Anthos* Doll back to the dorm. As for the remaining Doll, immediately secure him and send him to the treatment room.
Musumi: I apologize. I put too much trust in Kaoru-kun and ended up taking my eyes off him.
Musumi's Colleague: You’re lucky that it was him. He’s a Doll that’s normally honest and obedient. He’s not the type to lie.
Musumi: That’s right… at least, he gave off the vibe that you could trust him unconditionally.
Musumi's Colleague: It’s because within Anthos*, he’s the one that’s the closest to full bloom.
Musumi: Oh, so that’s what it is! The flower’s ability truly is amazing. I heard that he’s suffering from severe memory loss, but what does that have to do with the water?
Musumi's Colleague: Nothing at all. We haven’t administered water to Anthos*. That’s a special case from Dr Toudou.
Musumi: I see. I had no idea.
Musumi's Colleague: It truly is our blessing in disguise this time. In that state, it’s only a matter of time before he forgets everything that happened today.
(The staff head back inside)
Musumi's Colleague: More importantly, we have the one from Loulou*di to worry about. If we don’t start regulating his condition before the next live show…
Musumi: The next live show… is another lavish one, isn’t it?
Musumi's Colleague: That’s right. It’s next week.
Musumi: Can we make it?
Musumi's Colleague: We’ve got no other choice. Right now we’ve only got the water to fall back on, but there’s still cause for concern. Live shows have a great impact when it comes to emotional state.
Musumi: But live shows are also a source for a lot of positive emotions, right? In any case both the mind and body will stabilize, so there’s the possibility that the need for water can be weaned off.
Musumi's Colleague: That’s all just a facade.
Musumi: What do you mean?
Musumi's Colleague: Just who gets to decide whether emotions are positive or negative?
Musumi: ‘Who’...?
Musumi's Colleague: Is the seed capable of judgment and thought?
Musumi: But… That’s what it says on the written material.
Musumi's Colleague: Emotions that leave an impact will influence the flower’s development. That much is true. But, that’s all it does. Do you think that the emotions experienced by a 20-something-year-old being cheered on by a large crowd of people is something that it can imitate?
Musumi: That’s…
Musumi's Colleague: By administering the water, we can complete the flower’s development and give it flesh and blood that can be controlled. However, in exchange, whatever human emotion that’s there dies. An eternal beauty is preserved, but can we really say that what remains is living? I’m no expert in philosophy, so unfortunately I can’t open myself to that discussion.
Musumi: Then, what if we just leave the seed in for a short period of time and just remove it after? How about transferring the same seed between different people? We can lessen the strain across individuals. A singular cycle may become shorter, but the seed will be able to accumulate the progress across clinical trials while in an idol, right?
Musumi's Colleague: Yes, it’ll be a little better if we could do it that way.
Musumi: So we can’t?
Musumi's Colleague: We don’t have a perfect successful example to draw from. Both the body and the inserted seed are tightly bound to their host.
Musumi: No way…
Musumi's Colleague: Have you heard of this idol that was in Loulou*di, Amemiya Kaito?
Musumi: Yes, from the written material.
Musumi's Colleague: Currently, we know that whether the flower withers or the host dies, the seed will start to rot from within the body. Where we managed to retrieve this evidence was from none other than Kaito.
Musumi: E-Eh? Hang on, Amemiya Kaito should have withdrawn from Loulou*di…
Musumi's Colleague: We are researching unexplored territory at the forefront of medical research. It’s as you said. The mindset of pioneers is a weight too much to bear for the average Joe. (starts to walk away) Ah, that’s right. As your senior, let me offer you a word of advice: It’s better if you don’t refer to the Dolls by their names. If you let your feelings get a hold of you, you’ll regret it later.
Translator’s Notes:
The medical staff in this drama track should be the recurring medical staff from the previous drama track. This was only what I gathered by ear, but if anyone owns the physical CD and has the credits for the characters, feel free to let me know!