#laivince

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I wish you shelter from the storm A cosy fire to keep you warm But most of all When snowflakes fall I wish you love

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and I'll keep the secret right down to the end

Talked to Laivince all afternoon about her wedding (and a little about school -- how Ms. Cameron was perfectly evil, mostly. :P).

...if she's happy, I'm happy. That's what it comes down to. She is going to be the most beautiful bride in that has ever existed, and I wish her all the happiness in the world and then some more.

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silly whinging

Why are they always straight? ;_;

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tears (river's eyes)

more self-pity

She looked at me with sad eyes when I emerged from Doctor Robert's office, wherein I was bawling my eyes out and explaining why I tried to kill myself on Wednesday. She blew me a kiss when I left, still worried.

I put my sunglasses on when I stepped out of the surgery and let myself cry again, at least then, I could blame watery eyes on the hot wind.

Doctor Robert put me on Xanax, and advised me to stay off the Valium (it can be a depressant). He made me promise not to kill myself before seeing him again, two weeks from now.

I keep seeing Laivince blowing that worried kiss to me over and over in my head.

Why does everything horrible have to happen at once?

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keep calm and carry on

Laivince just got engaged to her boyfriend.

I am doing my very best not to cry in front of my fambly right now. I am doing the best I've ever done at not crying, actually. There's a little part of me that's standing outside of me going "damn, girl, you're amazing". (It would be lovely if said little part of me would be there all the time, but what can one do.)

Carry on.

And a rock feels no pain, And an island never cries.