#laurie rambles

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Seeing posts like "no one wants a to play on fandoms anymore there don't wanna be in the sandbox playing dolls it's so sad", is just so funny to me cos like...I have been in the sandbox for nearly two years now playing, I haven't left the sandbox at all this time and for some reason folks will come to the sandbox and go "oh you look like you're having fun" and will play dolls in the sandbox with me like this hasn't died y'all just refuse to play yourselves

[hexsichord]

Bugtor Week day 1 - Butterfly/ Metamorphosis (and alas the only day I have anything made sorry blame the postal service and my lack of energy cos there's just too much going on)

Papillioarcanis Viktalis notes and findings: This timelines Viktor willingly gave himself over to the Arcane in order to evolve and change and survive His Gloriously Evolved are lost souls saved from death with a part of his soul embedded into them. Whilst some stay in the commune others are sent to other timelines to ensure each Viktor is able to overcome death. It's very common to see a few resting on him, as though to keep him company. On one occasion it's been seen that they consume the gold tears Papillioarcanis Viktalis cried. It's believed this was meant to be a private moment so we left them in peace. It felt rather mournful His own Jayce succumbed and was lost to the Arcane years prior to discovery and his husk remains by Papillioarcanis Viktalis in the Commune When asked why he doesn't try to enter other timelines like his Gloriously Evolved do he merely responded with "my partner never left my side" He appears to have a false face to mimic that of humans, perhaps to lure in those he then evolves. It's a surprise with how human he comes across but it's known how the stirrings of the Arcane and how it acts. It is uncertain whether he too shall expire again or if he'll continue to live on in perpetuity. There's an air of apathy about the idea that implies he cares not either way. Rather ironic in a way; becoming a butterfly, a creature known for short lives and dying quick living on eternally. It's sad. I can't imagine my Viktor wanting this

I know he's not the prompted colours and all that but this idea influenced by Saviour Vik was in my head from the get and I just couldn't not. Soz. We're not gonna talk about the horrors involved in making him. He feels very cursed to me ngl and at this point I feel very conflicted about him. The mask will be staying on forever I feel. The mask, wings and skirt are my favourite parts. He's nothing like my plan really and I still think I like my drawn out plan more but hey you win some you lose some

[hexsichord]

When you see your moot's and friends' fic on a random recommended list and you sit there like "omg that's moot, moot made it omg yay 🥹" I love my moots and friends succeeding y'all deserve the world!!

[hexsichord]

I fear I may never finish my hanahaki au ramble which means I'll never be able to wax lyrically about the hexcore modifying the disease in Viktor and thus making forgot-me-nots sprout out of the rune cuts and truly that is a travesty to me and me alone cos I'm probably the only one out here thinking that's some cool imagery (but I also can't see shit mentally so you know I might be completely wrong with that imagery aphantastia does that to you)

[hexsichord]

I feel like Grace had a Tamagotchi when he was a kid and it died and he cried so much and then could never commit to raising another one every again

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UNRENDERED VIKTOR IS ALWAYS SO FUCKING PRETTY WHAT THE HELL MAN

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My friend sent me this image and I've never felt so perceived in my life ever I hate it

[hexsichord]

Viktor reaching for two hands we get it sir you're fucking greedy omg chill