Update on my season three the wilds fic because why tf not:
So my original plan was to have it completed before leaving for my trip this weekend. I'll be gone for a week and just don't think I'll get much done. So yeah.
But that didn't happen. I haven't really even started editing and half the fic is just completely not written.
However! My focus for the next two days before I leave is going to be polishing up chapters one to three so I have a bank ready and can still start posting. Then ofc I'll deal with the rest in the three weeks or so that buys me. I can however reveal that each chapter has a focus on a character (like in season one) but obviously Leah and Leatin is still going to be a huge part of each chapter. The first three chapters are as follows:
My dad has this friend named Top Ramen. His name is actually Paul, but we call him Top Ramen because this one time on a ski trip, he got very drunk and snorted, like, ten lines of ramen seasoning. The piñata looks just like him.
requested: Omg I just got the best idea for part 6 of ‘ I have questions’ maybe after Shelby gave Leah the talk, things take a nasty turn and Leah says something like ‘I wish I never met you’ during a fight and the reader storms off in hysterics and Shelby follows her and has to calm her down like never before and Shelby is scared something bad is happening (reader is hyperventilating like never before) and screams for Toni. Make it as angsty as you want I WOULD LOVE TO READ IT THE LEAH SERIES MIGHT BE MY GAVE THING EVER
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All of you have been stuck on this island for far too long. The burning hot sun causing everyone to be more irritable than usual.
Especially for your girlfriend Leah.
She has been struggling with the thoughts in her head. All of the thoughts telling her that something’s wrong. And with all the stares she’s getting from everyone especially Rachel, she snaps a lot quicker than before.
You know she doesn’t mean to, but it’s been happening a lot lately.
You and Shelby were just sitting out away from the rest of the crowd, having a serious conversation with one another. About your girlfriend Leah.
And unbeknownst to you, Leah’s irritably fumed a green flame inside her. The green flame of jealousy.
“How do you feel about her?” Shelby whispers softly.
You shrug at the thought, “I love her, more than words than express.”
“More than-” she’s about to say, but you cut her off.
“Yeah I think so,” you whisper, “But is that even appropriate?”
“Why wouldn’t it be?”
You shrug, “I don’t know. Just everything that happened between me and her. Should I even move on?”
The blonde places her hand on her shoulder, “It’s been what? 6 months. You’re always going to love her, no matter what, but it’s time to move on. And especially with Leah. She’s everything to you.”
A small smile forms onto your face, “How do I even tell her?”
“Just go from your heart.” her face lit up like a lightbulb clicked off in her head, “Okay practice on me!”
“Are you sure? I don’t need Toni beating the shit out of me.” you say and she laughs, playfully rolling your eyes.
“I’m sure.”
You nod, grabbing both of her hands, “I’m just gonna come out and say it-” you begin.
But what you didn’t know was that your girlfriend was walking past not too far from behind the two of you.
“I’ve been in love with you since the first time I met you. I know these circumstances are terrible, but I need you to know that I love you. More than words can express.” you confess to your best friend who was struggling so hard to stifle a laugh.
Someone cleared their throat from behind you. You immediately drop your hands, looking at your girlfriend with wide-eyes before placing a smile on your face. But that smile did not mirror onto hers.
“I should’ve known.” she whispers, shaking her head.
You look at her, tilting your head to the side, “Should’ve known what?”
“That this was going to happen. You and Shelby have always been so close, there were times where I thought that you were dating...” she begins.
And both you and Shelby shake your head, “No, no, no. That is not what’s going on here.”
“I thought I could trust you.” Leah says.
“You can! Me and Shelby, there’s nothing going on between us!” you try to convince your girlfriend, but she was not hearing it.
Leah’s face looks from yours to Shelby’s, her piercing blue eyes sending ice daggers into her heart. “Does Toni know?!”
“Know what? Leah there is nothing going on between me and Y/N!” she exclaims, flailing her arms.
“You’re just like Jeffery. You’re gonna get me to fall for you, just so you can pull the rug from underneath me. Break my heart like everyone else.”
Your eyes widen yet again, so much that you think they’re gonna pop out of your head, “No. No! Please just let me explain.” your voice cracking in the process, “I was just practicing-”
“Don’t. No I don’t need to hear anymore excuses from either of you,” she whispers, “You and Shelby took this as an opportunity to break people’s heart. Fuck everyone over like people did back in your hometown.”
“Lee no.” you begin to say, but she cuts you off yet again.
“No! I wish I never met you!” she yells, getting the attention from all of the other girls.
“If that’s how you really feel, so be it.” you whisper, before running off towards the jungle.
Shelby shakes her head, “One thing...I asked you to do one thing for me, not even two days ago and this is what you do? You don’t even deserve to hear what she was doing, but I’ll tell you anyway, so it can make you feel like an idiot. She was going to tell you she loves you.”
Leah face falls from anger to shock.
“Yeah, you fucking idiot.” Shelby takes off running into the jungle after you.
“Shit.” Leah mumbles, placing her head in her hands.
The jungle starts to feel like it was caving in. Soon you felt like you couldn’t get enough air and tears were filling your eyes so you couldn’t see very well. You slid your back against one of the tall trees.
“Y/N?!” you vaguely heard what you thought was Shelby’s voice, but you couldn’t get yourself to focus on anything, but Leah’s voice echoing through your ears.
Your body suddenly draining of its warmth before a cold sensation creeped its way through your veins.
Your chest rose and fell slowly, rapidly picking up pace to the point where simply taking a breath was a large effort. Breaking out into a cold sweat. The whole world began to spin faster and faster as adrenaline coarse through your body.
“Hey, hey, I’m here.” Shelby says, brushing the hair out of her face, “Can you breathe?”
You shook your head, gasping out harshly, “I-I can’t breathe.”
“Hey, it’s okay. You’re okay.” she whispers calmly, but you could sense the panic in her voice.
She’s dealt with your panic attacks before, but this was something different.
Your gasping didn’t stop and your panic only continued to grow.
“I wish I never met you!” Leah’s voice echos in your head.
“Y/N, breathe. Can you hear me?”
All you could hear were your own thoughts and Leah’s voice, which overpowered the sound of her voice.
Luckily, you didn’t get too far from camp so Shelby screamed out, “TONI!!!”
Not even two minutes later, you could hear Toni’s footsteps following into the jungle, “Shelby! Are you okay?”
She finally found the two of you. You were sweating and crying hysterically, continuing to gasp for breath. Your lungs felt like you were on fire.
“I don’t know how to help.” she whispers, getting teary eyed at her best friend.
Toni squats in front of you, putting both of her hands on your legs, “Hey it’s okay. I need you to focus on your breathing okay.”
She takes your hand in hers, placing it right where her heart was, “You feel my heartbeat?”
You nod softly, “Okay I want you to focus on that.”
Your breathing slowly starting to become more even and your lungs didn’t feel like they were on fire.
“How did you know to do that?” Shelby asks, sitting next to the two most important people in her life.
Toni shrugs, running her fingers through your hair, “Martha would get really bad panic attacks in the middle of the night. And I tried everything for months, but nothing seemed to work better than a heartbeat.”
“I’m tired.” you whisper to the girls, your face puffy from crying so hard.
“I know, Y/N. Everything’s going to be okay.” Toni whispers, “You can rest now.”
After a few minutes you fell fast asleep with your head resting in Toni’s lap.
Toni picks you up bridal style as you nuzzle your head into her chest, “I can carry her.” Shelby offers, but she just shakes her head with a soft smile on her face.
“No it’s okay. I got her,” she says as the two trek back to the campsite.
Leah was sat next to Fatin, her eyes red and puffy. Tears still streaming down her face. She immediately gets up from her spot and rushes towards the three girls.
But Shelby places her hand on her chest, stopping her from getting any closer.
So I was thinking about autistic Leah again and how it's weird that no one picked up on that part of her. Then I was like...what if they did. What if basically everyone in her life, parents and teachers all knew. Maybe she got diagnosed when she was 6 but they never explained it to her properly. So they all knew but she was left to wonder why she had those weird doctors appointments with strange questions and why she got taken out of class to colour randomly all throughout elementary school.
So I feel like Fatin is definitely a power bottom when it comes to her relationship with Leah. I mean she's totally dominant even in her relationships with men and Leah gives off service top vibes when it comes to her queerness. Idk.
