#lesbiansandheadaches

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Footnote

You won’t get hurt if you stop giving a fuck*

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Me: Hey remember when I was little and you actually loved me?

Parents: Yes

Me: That was fun wasn't it :)

Parents: Too bad we hate you now

Me: Ahh yeah I forgot -_-

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When the thought of someone keeps you up :)

I hope the thought of me keeps some people up.. but not in a cute way like they love me or anything. More in a way of if I sleep I might not wake up.. cause they think I’m gonna kill them. So here is my message to those people you’re right. A few of you are on my hit list.. one day.

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Person: Hey

Me: Hey What's up

Person: The sky

Me: ...

Person: well it is

Me: You started this conversation just to make that joke.. do you want to live, I will murder you.

Person: Hahaha you fell for it though

Me: *Kills a man*

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A Shitty world

Me: Hello world you are a killing me. But not as much as I'm killing myself I'm sorry that you have so high of expectations of everyone and I am more sorry that everyone thinks that is acceptable. I fucking hate this world. But don't be mislead this isn't me saying I'm going to kill myself or that dreams don't come true, although I'm not saying dreams do come true either. But I think it's super shitty that when we are all young and innocent everyone says follow your heart and believe in yourself and you will be safe don't worry about a thing. That you are going to be happy and protected. But that really isn't true like you will get hurt alot and quite often. You won't be safe even with people you thought would never hurt you no matter how good of a person you are, bad people will come into your life and, good people will sometimes actually be bad people or turn into them. The truth is you can't save everyone. The truth is that no matter what you do you will hurt people even the ones you swore to protect. You won't be happy all the time, you might not be happy often. You won't even know true happiness until you aren't happy at all. Everyone is capable of great good but also great evil and we are all at war. I understand hope. I even understand parents and adults telling children this to give them hope. But in this world, in this life, there is a fine line between making someone hopeful and setting them up for disappointment. I wish my parents would have told me this. Truth is things could always be worse but I don't care about worse. I don't have any opinion on the past. I'm just residing in the present. I don't have any hopes for the future. I'm indifferent. I'm emotionless. I sleep because my dreams are the only place where I'm at peace. Don't count on the world to get better count on yourself to adapt. Cause memories of all the shit don't really fade they hide, they wait for you, and they return. It isn't a matter of recovering it's a matter of adapting it's a matter of learning to cope and not everyone can. You will fuck up, you will be heartbroken, you will be depressed. Truth is you could be the best person and do the best things and treat people great and give them your all. But in the end. When the end comes. The truth is if you were good, if you were bad, if you were the best, or the worst. It's a super shitty world and we are all here learning what to love, what to hate, who to love, who to hate, when to talk, how to succeed and in the end, it's a super shitty world and we all just have to adapt. I wish someone would have told me that it's a super shitty world. I wish someone would have told me to watch out, because it's a super shitty world and it turns some of the best people into some of the worst.