A sad update/Where's my glow up?!
At the end of 2024, I chose “glow-up” to be the word, aka the main theme, of the new year. It’s April, and while there’s still a lot of time left in 2025, I want to be honest with you: things are NOT going well right now.
I’m technically out of my toxic job, but that hasn’t made me feel better so far. There are a lot of negative feelings purging, and I guess, it makes sense. For months, I’ve been struggling with severe stress and anxiety that I had to manage so they wouldn’t affect my performance at work.
Right now, all the stress is out, and I’m just… not happy with anything. I’m not happy with the way I look, my eating habits, how I’ve been managing my finances for the last two years or so, the way I spend my free time, how much I procrastinate, and honestly the list of self-pity could go on for a long time.
Last night, I was literally like… where’s my effing glow-up?! The one I’ve been craving for years – and even made it the theme for 2025?
It’s not easy to share these things. But I have to be honest about my glow up journey not going the way I thought it would – at least, so far.
I don’t want to dishearten anyone, but self-improvement is not always an easy process, there are many challenges, and sometimes things are plainly bad. It’s not the end of the world, though, and disappointing you is not the goal of this post. I only wanted to be real with you.
My life feels like a complete mess right now (or I feel like a complete mess?) and I’m trying to fix it. It feels like there are a lot of things to fix and take care of, but I try to remind myself that there is time and I’m on the right track because I’m becoming aware of everything I don’t like and needs a change.
Only some of the things I’m slowly working on:
Be more mindful with the way I spend my money and increase my savings.
Eat healthier and less processed foods.
Procrastinate less, so I can spend more time creating, reading, and learning.
Take care of my house, tidy, declutter, and change things I don’t like.
Normally, I’m a person who tries to work on many things at the same time, and this doesn’t help as well since I always end up burning out. So, I’d really like to take it slow this time.
So, yeah, I’ve been almost a week out of my job, and this is how things are going so far. I know it’s not the best update, but at least it’s a honest one. Soon, things will hopefully feel a little better.
