Sitting here enjoying a hot cup of coffee, baby asleep on me after my workout this morning. Proud of my consistency, this is the first time ever in my life that I have actually worked out daily and stuck to it. It's hard somedays to get that motivation though, those sleepless nights are something, but I push through it.
I'm grateful for this time in my life where I'm focusing a lot more on my future and what's to come. I'm reading a lot and listening to podcasts to help me gain confidence to reach my goals. I've decided to hire a life coach to help guide me. It's difficult doing it on my own. But, I have noticed a shift in my mindset. I am more positive and I'm less judgemental. I have a sister I havent spoken to in over a year. Yesterday she called me and I answered her call, we spoke for about 30 minutes and I not once was stand offish, I spoke to her with an open heart.
I'm learning about boundaries, even if they are towards family. I come from a traditional Hispanic household, so boundaries are non existent. It hasnt been easy setting boundaries, my mom thinks I'm crazy. But, I stick to them whether they like it or not. Its amazing how having inner peace changes so many things.
I was thinking about my friendships over the weekend. I made peace with the fact that I don't talk to many of my closest friends anymore. We are growing and changing, I went in a different direction and made my family a priority, my babies are small right now and I don't want to miss anything. Yes, I miss those days of getting up and doing as I please, staying out late and having an amazing time with them. I miss them and our conversations but when I became a mom I had to make different choices. I don't regret it, I don't regret that I put my family first. I'll always have our memories, they're good ones. I will always have love for them.
My baby girl is officially 1 and bella will be 10 soon. I'm so excited for the future. I'm excited to build a great life for my girls.
