3am by Llavilla Llantero
[So here's the other one. Enjoy! I find this note having a moral lesson. Tells that letting go and moving on can be done. It just takes time.] It's almost 3am today. And it's Good Friday. Im here in front of the computer searching random things and looking at random pictures and searching for favorite people. I know it's a bit late but if i force myself to bed, i'll just end up tossing and turning with eyes wide awake. So, I ended up typing this weird little note that will probably go to nowhere. Sleep is a little far from my grasp and it's killing me that the silence of the night indulges me to think about the past again. It's my stupid personality that makes me linger to past hurtful events and think of them over and over again like a broken tape playing in a broken cassette player. And so my mind wandered over the few things that i tried to forget for some time, I thought about you again and realized it's been 2 months since. A lot of things happened, a lot of realizations arrived, new people came and there had been little achievements. Then It just snapped in the back of my head that woah, I think Im beginning to move on. It's a bittersweet feeling. Im sure of it. But this feeling is a bit relaxing and the knowledge that Im off to a better start again is refreshing. The pain that swallowed me entirely before, is gone, well at least a huge part of it. The frustration that drove me to stupidity has also disappeared. The wound that I thought will be fresh, was now healed. And this boring night suddenly brought a smile to my face. A genuine smile that nobody can see and appreciate. A smile that I can only give to myself. I guess I had been a stronger person. A person with a wider perspective. A person with a brighter view of what the future has to offer. Right now, im afraid to jump into conclusions. But i think im headed into the right direction. There are a lot of lessons that I learned from the ventures of my life. And even if compared to others, what I felt was just a common petty experience, it will forever carve a mark into my heart, something that I'll end treasuring in the end. Now I realized that what other people can do, will make or break you. And even if it breaks you and smashes you, there's no saying you'll just end down there, 'coz believe me, Rising Up is far more thrilling when you're pushed into the ground. I told you, this note will end up nowhere. Yet, I've got to admit that there's a note of SATISFACTION in front of me now.