#long!!

[theredtrails]

Omg why is Garrus so hard to draw, his face ends up always weird if one line is slightly off 💀

[selfshippinglover]

All of the most likely to asks with Hector :3 (@selfshipper-from-the-heart)

HOLY SHIP! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! THIS IS GOING TO BE FUUUN >:))

most likely text me memes at 2 am

XD Sorry hunny but that’s me! (Hector grins but in his eyes are war flashbacks)

2.    most likely to wake me up at sunrise to get breakfast with them

We both very much value our sleep but, that does sound like a good idea eh, Ci? *gives me a big old grin*

Yeah, that sounds super cute! ,,^_^,,

    3. most likely to pull an all nighter with me

Eh, I wanna sleep chapaco! 

Yeeeah, me too ^_^’

    4.   most likely to get me home safely after a night out

Ci without a doubt! 

    5. most likely to need me to get them home safely after a night out

Idunno, I mean we both don’t like being alone...

Si! Where you are is where I should be! Especially at night. *hugs him*

     6. most likely to carry me when my feet are tired

Aw Hec! Remember when my legs were hurting really badly and you carried me all the way back to the land of the dead?

I do! You’re light as a feather, ya know?

*blushes* haha yeah

    7. most likely to take me to bed and tuck me in if i fall asleep in the car

,,QwQ,, H-Hector!!

    8. most likely to get into a fight to defend my honor

Neither of really like conflict 

     9. most likely to get me banned from a store / restaurant

Neither!

Yeah! We respect store workers!

    10. most likely to get me into legal trouble

*eye rolls* I’m sure you know who already

That was only once or twice, I swear!

    11. most likely to get me out of legal trouble

It’s hard but I’ll do it!

    12. most likely to need me to get them out of legal trouble

*Hector crosses his arms* These are feeling more an more targeted at me

(I reach down and pat his skull) No worries hun! It looks like we’re down with legal matters now!

     13. most likely to leave me on read

Neither really

     14. most likely to steal food off my plate

If I did that companera, I’d lose my hands!

    15. most likely to embarrass me in public

We’re both pretty adverse to that hah ^_^’

    16. most likely to help me crash a wedding

*Collective shrug*

    17. most likely to bring me home a stray animal

Most likely? More like I do that every week!

Hectooorrrrrr >//<

    18. most likely to scream lyrics to songs with me in the car

Both!

    19. most likely to take me on a road trip

Hector loves traveling around :D We both wanna see as much as we can >:)

     20. most likely to let me cut / dye their hair

Eh, Ciara would. Personally, I’m not into it very much. (hair is secretly dyed)

     21. most likely to steal my clothes

Well look at that me fresa! I wonder who that could be...~

(>///<)

      22. most likely to let me steal their clothes

I usually have to fight Hector fo them so me ^_^’

     23. most likely to learn TikTok dances with me

(at the same time) No.

     24. most likely to go with me to a haunted house

*Already freaked out by meme mention* Not me! >-<

    25. most likely to ride the scariest rides with me at an amusement park

oh hell no QwQ

I’ll ride em... (Hector)

     26. most likely to build a blanket fort with me

>:33 Me! Me!

Si! cici LOVES cute things like that! hehe, It’s grown on me too!

     27. most likely to take cute candid pictures of me

Hectooorrrr >:(

^_^’ ehehheh

      28. most likely to ballroom dance with me

Both? Both UwU

      29. most likely to give the best hugs

Definately Cici guys :)

awwww Heccy!~ *HUGS*

        30. most likely to bring me flowers

(fareaway face and dreamy eyes) Hector~

It’s true! *proudly*

      31. most likely to get me food when they find out i haven’t eaten all day

Ya know Ci, you can’t be skipping meals. It’s not good for you!

I know but.....

     32. most likely to hold me while i cry

Both of us! QwQ

     33. most likely to call me sweet nicknames

Oh no! They said the magic words! IEEEE

*preceeds to FITE*

     34. most likely to confess their feelings to me when they’re drunk

Tie!! We’re both hopeless romantics, ya know?

[caandlelit]

Hug headcanon for dabihawks? Please I long for them

thankyou for the request!! and ok anon listen 

at first

they are both very very much awkward around physical affection 

dabi hasn’t had a hug in five years and hawks had probably never been hugged till he met rumi

at which he probably cried tbh

so the first time they hugged

they were lying on hawks’ roof, staring up at the sky and talking about nothing and everything

dabi still hadn’t confessed to him about being touya

and hawks still hadn’t told him he already knows through three am conspiracy theory’s and hero forums and the depths of tumblr and youtube comments

dabi whispers it to the sky

“im the eldest sibling of four”

hawks snorts

dabi glares at him halfheartedly

“what”

hawks giggles to himself and says ‘yeah I can see it’

dabi looks back up and says quietly

“I miss them and my mom all the fucking time. they were so clingy, and we were all really close and I miss my little brothers jokes and my little sisters smile and my smallest brothers laugh and my-” he blinks back a tear “-my moms hugs” he admits the last part softly

they’re quiet for a while 

then hawks says, softly and shyly, looking at the sky

'my parents never hugged me.’

dabi blinks

and turns around on his side to stare at him

hawks stares steadfastedly up at the sky, red creeping up his ears from embarrassment

'they were..neglectful. I never had an actual family.’

dabi sits up crosslegged and gives him a soft smile

hawks looks at him blankly

dabi opens his arms and grins

hawks realises what he’s doing and his eyes widen and he shakes his head rapidly mouthing 'nonono’

dabi shuffles forward and pulls him close to his chest

hawks stiffens

then he relaxes and tightens his grip on the back of dabis shirt and he sniffles and they both let the tears fall at the same time and dabi shoves his head into hawks hair and simply breathes for the first time in an age and hawks rocks into his chest sobbing and dabis shirt gets quietly soaked as he rubs comforting circles on hawks back between his wings and his shoulderblades till he relaxes

they fall asleep like that

dabi falls apart in front of hawks for the first time after he tells him about being endeavors son

hes so incredibly confused that hawks isnt angry and he tries to push hawks away but hawks is calm 

dabi never yells but when he does

he screams loud, angry and broken

“I am related to that fucking monster I am his SON and I left. I didn’t protect them I have to protect them but I can’t let them see me like this I’m a villain-” his voice comes down to a plead and he’s crying, tears streaming down his scarred face and 

hawks shushes him and and flies up till he’s above dabi and dabi is face to chest with him and he hugs him

holds his head close to his chest and runs soft hands through his hair soothingly

dabi quietens

they stay like that for a while just. breathing

these are so angsty

I’m sorry wait I’ll write a happy one

hawks doesnt know how to cook

and bear in mind 

the only reason dabi can cook

is bc he is

1. the eldest child

2.  a hobo

3. a big fan of kurogiris creations be they cocktails or meals

so hawks wakes up one day

to smell pancakes

he has no idea how he knows that they are pancakes bc he barely has them 

unless he goes to a breakfast bar or smth

but he wakes up disoriented and tangled in his sheets

and most importantly 

and disappointing 

alone

even though he knows that he and dabi fucked last night

hard to forget with his being naked and his legs being weak and wobbly

so he dresses (barely, but I don’t write porn) and follows his nose to the kitchen, hovering in the air

and he sees

in all his bedhead, sweatpants and kiss-me-I’m-hot apron glory

his man

flipping pancakes not so expertly seeing as there are many pancake bits on the ceiling 

which is hard to accomplish seeing as hawks bought this apartment with only high ceilings, big windows and top floor in mind

so he tells him that conversationally

dabi jERKs 

and yelps girlishly and hawks is laughing his ass off way too loudly for ten am

the frying pan is tossed in the air and dabi is squatting on the floor with hands on his burning cheeks 

dabi peeks through his fingers and then drops his hands entirely when he sees how pretty hawks looks in the morning light

hair ruffled, shirt falling off his shoulder and still cackling hellishly

dabi gets up and doesn’t even argue at all with the instinct to smother him with love bc of how cute he looks

he throws his arms around him and squeezes, chin dropping on hawks’ head while hawks is still giggling to himself while he slides his arms around dabis waist

I want a forty five minute long hug no less 

[diamondarmored-blog1]

this is whiny af. and very long. bit of an explanation of some stuff (aka why I am like this) and a wee request. 

warning, there’s a brief mention of sexual abuse and A LOT of historic drama. I’ve tried really hard not to appear in search tags for the relevant areas, so please try not to cause it to appear by mentioning the fandom or muse name without cutting it up (e.g. sei//fer) because as you’ll see, I don’t want these people near me. 

sit down and let uncle charlie tell you a horror story.

I’ve been slow again on here, I’M SORRY!! I was making an FFX blog. I know I’m getting a reputation for being a serial blog hopper, but the reason for that is, I’ve had two muses I really really loved and nothing else has ever come close. One was my Chuami, who naturally dropped in intensity as time went on (I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing - you can’t keep forcing a muse into ever more dramatic scenarios without giving them a break or they end up mutated and OP). The other was V//elka. Seifer is the closest I’ve come, but there’s still a void  :,(

V//elka did not die naturally. You may have seen me mention “the other fandom I was in” and how it’s a cesspit of bullying asscreases, sexual harassers, liars, stalkers, thieves and assorted other villains. But you have not heard the tale. What you’re about to read sounds like a lot for six or seven people, but this fandom is unique in that it’s 70% non-RPers. People who follow RP blogs and treat them like their personal entertainment. I’ve never seen another like it. So whoever is most popular with them has influence, because the hate anons and the nasty criticism is coming from outside the real RP community, and the senders will enforce whatever their faves say. The pressure to align with whatever is doing well with the viewers is extreme because the chances of being run off your blog if you don’t are far higher than usual. 

There was one other blog for V when I made mine. I asked her - the writer - if she’d be okay with another being around, even though I’m not obliged to ask permission to make a blog, and she completely ignored me. I thought maybe it was a weird thing to ask, and my other blog in that fandom was welcomed and pretty popular with the non-RPers. I was the only one of that character active. So I just went ahead and did it, thinking it would be no big. I was Wrong. Within not-very-long, the girl and her friends, who had huge followings of, shall we say, less mature users, to begin with as most of them didn’t really write - they drew on request, and you don’t need to have a reading age to appreciate free art - began to employ every trick, tactic and scheme they could to bully me into abandoning, including but not limited to: forcing new RPers to choose between them and me, stealing my content, freezing out anyone who was seen to interact with me (leading to newer users abandoning because no one would talk to them but me), stealing my friends’ muses(! yeah, the whole thing), copying my backstory and ships when ridiculing them didn’t work, incorporating my headcanons into their muses in the same way, copying my art (one of them was an art student and I am a very bad beginner - she would take my drawings and redo them with a higher level of skill and collect the praise for it), making PSAs about how I wasn’t entitled to be in the fandom and how nobody wants to thread with me so stop posting, sending spies to pretend to be my friend to trick me into insulting them so they could get caps, lying about me (one of them spread the rumour that I was some kind of sex obsessed pervert and you guys know how stupid an idea that is), and blaming me for their personal issues (e.g. a historically kind and well mannered user who had been absent for months made a callout post and @’d them all, explaining that he couldn’t come back because they had bullied him and made fun of his abusive history - this was somehow declared to be my fault, they said I put him up to the post because I was jealous of them (?), and they actually responded to him by saying “sorry your daddy touched you” and “sorry if you think its our fault you got abused but we don’t really care” and making public jokes about how they’d never be friends with someone as low as him, spamming the word “elitist” wherever they could... non-ironically). Eventually, even though me and my main ship partner had a shitload of non-RPer fans for the work we were doing and our partnership was very popular, neither of us could even log in anymore. Every time we spoke or moved, some stupid plan was enacted to make sure it backfired on us. We were replicated by members of that group, and our muses turned into pandering caricatures of what they originally were until we left. My muse was a real point of pride for me, she was the best example of a strong, confident female lead I had ever written, and she was made into a sex crazed goth domme by the very people who accused me of that and declared it abhorrent. My partner’s was turned from a complicated, fiercely proud, genderfluid(?) killer to a fragile little flower with a dick in a dress. It wasn’t just us, by the way. Every good writer who joined the fandom is gone; they started leaving not long after I arrived. I tracked some down and asked why, and they all told the same story. One of them told me the process is cyclical and now that I’m gone, they’ll choose someone else in my place. Meanwhile - here’s the kicker - the group responsible don’t even fucking write. The only time they do is when they’re using it as a weapon against somebody, by stealing their plot or their ship and acting it out themselves. Now that the writers have embarked on a mass exodus and none have come to replace them, all they do is shitpost because there’s no one left to target. The stolen muses’ blogs are dead. As if this didn’t sound like a problem enough, three of them have a penchant for little girls.

Where are you going with this, Charlie? Well, chums, it goes a little way to explaining my aversion to smut (one of their number was a self-proclaimed “sex negative feminist” who told me I was a shit RPer because all I ever did was smut and talked about me like I was a prostitute - at the time, I had written NONE, and she had five sideblogs she only made for ships with her friends... she had some serious internalised issues around that, she seemed to deny the existence of her own hypocrisy). It explains why I bang on about welcoming other Seifers so much, why I’m so strict on drama now, and why I’ll bite the head off of anyone who claims to be the sole granter of permission to make a certain muse. It will go some way to explaining why I hardblock anyone who looks like they might cause me similar melodramatic problems at any point in the future, no discussion, no exceptions. I am extremely wary of people with rules full of red flags, and people who make a lot of unprompted ~everybody love your duplicates~ posts, because they’re never truly unprompted. They’re usually an attempt to get in first, so the one who didn’t post it looks automatically less friendly. I didn’t handle it well at the time, I didn’t want to make things worse so I allowed myself to get steamrollered, and the more they got away with, the more they pushed it. The final straw was poor C and that callout post, but it came at about the same time my ship partner’s muse was copied onto one of their sideblogs, so the end was near anyway. If it happened again now, I’d waste no time in telling them to shove it up their festering assholes. ANYWAY I’m telling you all this because my search for a replacement muse has gone cold, and that’s left me feeling a bit dead and uninspired, which leads me to keep losing my flow with Seifer as well. I logged into her blog earlier with the idea of reclaiming her somehow. It felt like cleaning a house someone died in. I changed her url, wiped away all the content that was bothering me and I blocked about 200 people - fucking everyone from that fandom who was following me. I might change her theme too, I’m not sure. I’ve added a request-only line to her original verse to deter anyone who joins that fandom in the future (that’s how badly I need to keep away). I’ll need to replace all her tags to keep them from digging me up again. So here’s where the request comes in. I’ve sketched in some FFX and FFVIII verses. I would like to try to bring her out of there and closer to here. I’ve mentioned this before, but I’ve never explained why. Can I count on the support of any of my friends and neighbours here? I feel like she’s locked in a room full of dangerous weirdos and I can’t get to her unless I can totally extract her. I could really use some help in pulling her out and creating a new space for her. You don’t need to commit to anything, just treat her like any other OC. If it fails and she dies off, at least I’ll have tried. If I succeed in clawing back some of my focus, the blog hopping will stop. If anyone feels like doing me a solid, that’d be great. To be honest, the experience tainted RP as a whole for me, sapped my motivation and confidence, and I’ve never been as into it since.

[emchantearchive]

i personally disagree w the idea that max deserves to do donuts over lewis

i say that as a fan of both of them

i do think other drivers like valtteri and kmag shouldve gotten to do donuts and have some celebrations like the veterans of the sport

maybe even carlos cuz its his last w ferrari but hes not leaving the sport completely so ig kinda iffy

and then maybe lewis go last

but this race wasnt rly ab max that was more vegas

so maybe vegas he shouldve got to do some

but lewis isn't just "changing teams"

he and merc made history and he gave sm to the sport

hes leaving a team he and we never thought hed leave

ppl everywhere acting confused as to why this is such a huge deal as if everyone wasn't collectively shocked when it was announced

they had 12 years of the most successful driver and team partnership in history and he also managed an incredible drive to end it

i dont even appreciate how merc have been treating lewis but tbh they've built sm tg even ppl who were excited for him to leave are in their feels

i dont think im biased given im a huge fan of both of them

i keep seeing ppl say its not a big deal and it rly bugs me

if it wasn't he wouldn't have gotten the opportunity to do the donuts celebrate and have one last moment

no hate i just think its unfair to reduce this to just "switching teams"

hello, nonnie!! i’ll delve into this under the cut, as to not clog the dash!!

first off, i want to clarify something. i realise what i rb’d says max should’ve got to do donuts— that actually wasn’t the main point of me rbing it!! being brutally honest, the rb was just showing i agreed with the fact i didn’t agree with lewis getting a special finishing position + donut secrion. you could argue max should’ve done them in vegas, but you could also argue he should’ve done them in abu dhabi— it really just depends on the fan.

and i agree, valterri, kmag and any others who wouldn’t be on the grid next year should’ve got the donuts celebration to themselves.

but i don’t agree with carlos, and i say that as a carlos fan! switching team doesn’t mean you should get some special donuts, or a special finishing place.

now, as someone who’s a fan of lewis— not a mega fan, but i do support him and i respect how much he’s done and achieved in the sport— i totally get how big his impact with mercedes is. yes, we thought he’d never leave. yes, they’ve done a lot together. but.. so have other teams, yknow?

you didn’t see seb getting special donuts or placements when he left rbr after getting their first four and only (at the time) championships. you could argue that well, lewis had more impact than seb. fair enough!! but if we’re going off of the impact and history, i’d argue seb still done a decent amount for rbr and what they achieved.

and i respect your opinions completely, we all have differing ones, that’s what makes us as humans so interesting!!

but to me, i don’t think he needed a special celebration or finish position. same way i don’t think max will need one when/if he leaves red bull for another team. if he retires instead of moving? totally different story.

but, lewis is going from mercedes to the most popular team in f1 (as in, to outside viewers. most people will know ferrari and the greats, yknow?), he isn’t retiring so to me, i didn’t think he should’ve had that special spot, taking away from the drivers— young and old— who were leaving the sport that day.