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[utsmythe]

quinn && sebastian

bas: made it okay to where ever the next place was?

bas: i don't keep track of you guys anymore.

[texaslonghornsevans]

Sam nearly raced out of his dorm once he got the invite (nearly forgetting his backpack). He stopped in the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror. He picked up his comb and quickly ran through his hair before he headed out the door. He simply tossed the comb on his desk and missed it. Rather than picking it up, he left it on the floor. Surely Sebastian wouldn’t mind. It’s not like it was the only thing that was on the floor. 

He showed up to the sorority house and let himself in. He’d done it multiple times. Now just to look for Quinn in the mess. He spotted some girls hanging out on the couch. “Hey, excuse me.” He waved to them. “Um... Do you know where Quinn is?” He asked them. 

[utsmythe]

bas ⋙ quinn

bas: how was the flight?

[utsmythe]

quinny ⇄ bas

s: If you come back with laurels in your hair and with some ugly dress, I'm going to tell my mom to put in a disowning request.

s: Hangovers only my dear.

[utsmythe]

i swear i lived

TAGGING: sebastian smythe & quinn fabrbay

WHEN: 29 APR 2020

WHERE: sebastian and sam’s dorm room

WHAT: sebastian is exhausted after 72 hours of no sleep. he goes home and passes out, however because he doesn’t answer his phone, his mother has a panic attack

CONTENT WARNING: suicide

sebastian

it was happening again. first he messaged her. 

[ text ] when will you be home? can we talk? 

usually her son wouldn't say that. no, he would say i want to talk to you. this was wrong. her heart hammered as she checked her miss calls.

the second sign came. his name showed in red twice. her heart raced as tears exploded from her eyes. quickly, she paced and looked at her phone. she called him with haste. "no no no." she cried as she dials his number over and over. by the tenth call, her legs gave out as her worse possible nightmares were flooding back into her mind. "SEBASTIAN, PLEASE PICK UP." she screamed into the ringing phone. she hung up again and dialed back.

it was no use, he wasn't picking up. her breathe quicken as she thought on about the last two weeks. sebastian was on new meds, he'd miss the last two sessions, the last two weekends he couldn't come home, he was struggling with school, did he mention in passing that somebody was bugging him? again, she missed the signs. she wailed as she shot up and grabbed a hold of her phone again. within the missed calls list, she had spotted her mother in law's name. in the panic, a clear answer stood out to her.

                           quinn fabray, she goes to ut 

she shifted through her phone, hand shaking, causing her to go to screens she didn't want to bring up. "STOP IT." she screamed at the object, as if that would stop the phone from wiggling in her hands. she managed to get to quinn's number, shoving her thumb into the button multiple times. "YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT." She dialed the number. if quinn didn't pick up, she'd immediately hang up and dial again. this was her last hope, there was no way that she would be able to get back to the us in time to see sebastian. what mattered is that she got a hold of quinn before she lost her son again.

quinn

Quinn had just gotten back to the sorority house from taking some tests when her phone rang. She looked down at the screen and noticed that it was Sebastian's mom. Honestly, she didn't think much of it. She figured something was going on like a dinner or something between the families and her opinion was needed of food or fabric or something of the like. And her mother knew she would much rather help Mrs. Smythe than her so that's probably what this was about.

The blonde quickly made her way to her room and cleared her throat before putting on the Quinn voice she did for the older woman. "Mrs. Smythe, hello. How are you?" She asked politely before moving and sitting down at her desk.

sebastian

by the time she answered, adrienne could barely keep air in her for more than a couple of seconds. "oh quinn." her voice was shivering and shaking. there was no way she could hide her panic. her normal soft voice was cracking and high pitched. "where are you? do you know where sebastian is? i've been calling and calling, please i need you to go find him please- please find him. i can't live if this happens again, i just can't..." her words twisted and formed to something no longer english nor french. her hysterical fit was evolving rapidly as she sobbed loudly.

quinn

Hearing the tone of her voice, Quinn stood up quickly and tried to think of if she knew where Sebastian was or not. "I'm at the sorority house, but I'll go looking for him, okay?" She could tell this was urgent, whatever it was. "I'm sure he's studying for finals and probably has his phone off." She tried to assure the woman who was basically like a second mother to her now. She was about to leave the room when she stopped in her tracks. "If what happens again?" She asked curiously; not meaning to pry, it just slipped out.

sebastian

she was speaking, but it wasn't english and parts of it wasn't even french. "please find him..... i need you to find him please." she begged in a harsh shrill. words caught in her throat as her tear soak cheeks rubbed against the phone. "i... i... i can't say please just go find him. i can't say it again. please don't make me ever say it. please go find him pl-pl-please!'

quinn

Quinn nodded and opened the door; quickly walking down the stairs and out of the house. She could tell how urgent this really was and the way she was acting... no. She couldn't think about it. Not when Mrs. Smythe needed her. "I'll find him, okay? I'm going." She got into her car and realized she really had no idea where Sebastian could be. "I'll call you the second I find him, okay? Just stay calm for me. For him." She swallowed and hung up the phone before finding Sebastian's name and attempted calling him herself while driving her car towards the dorm he shared with Sam. "Come on, Bas. Answer." She spoke into the phone as it rang again.

sebastian

"no no no no no no!" adrienne wailed but quinn hung up before then. she gasped and looked at her phone. she clutched it hard as reality was still hitting her. she panted and sat down on the floor and put her head between her knees. all she could think about was how stupid she was for leaving while sebastian was taking his exams.

sebastian's phone buzzed violently on the bedstand beside him, but he didn't stir. instead, sebastian turned himself over in the bed and fell deeper into his slumber.

quinn

Quinn hung up after several rings and threw her phone into the seat next to her as she  drove maybe a little too fast to the dorms and ran through the doors as other kids were leaving. She made her way to the room that she knew was Sebastian's and Sam's. She went to grab the handle and prepared herself before opening it. Surprisingly, it was unlocked and she peaked in. There on the bed was Sebastian and she slowly walked over to him. She swallowed hard as she got closer only to see his chest rise and fall and she realized he was asleep. She couldn't help it as a little anger went through her and she closed the distance between them and gave him a good smack across the face to wake him. "Wake up!" She screamed and raised her hand to hit him again.

sebastian

one second, sebastian was asleep, the next the force of a baseball bat whipped across his face. confused and dazed, sebastian popped out of his sleep and looked around. sebastian's eyes focused. he was blind without his glasses, but he knew that outline and that pose. "hey, hey, hey, stop!" he shouted as his hands went to defend himself. "what the hell? no i didn't sleep with your boyfriend, if i did, it wasn't my fault." he shouted as he grabbed his pillow.

quinn

"You think this about sleeping with a boyfriend?" She grabbed the pillow and tossed it across the room. "Do you have any idea how worried your mom is?!" She yelled and slapped his arm this time. "Get up. Now!" She yelled and saw Sebastian's phone on the table and grabbed it. "Unlock it and call your mother!"

sebastian

Sebastian let her scream. After he heard her, Sebastian recognized the voice. “Quinn?” He asked and jumped when the pillow was snatched out of his hand. He raised his arms at the incoming hit. “Okay okay stop hitting me!” He attempted as she grabbed his phone. His phone was lined with dozens of messages and all of them from was from his mother and one from Quinn. Sebastian held it close to his blind eyes and pressed the button to call his mother as instructed. Sebastian flopped his legs over the bed. His mother picked up on the second ring and Sebastian spoke in French to his mother. The conversation between him and his mother lasted fifteen minutes. Of course Adrienne could still be heard on the other side, wailing and crying. Sebastian hung up and put his hand to his face. “Okay I called.” He stated obviously as he put his elbow on his knees. “Listen I’m fine. She’s fine.” His voice was suppressing on coming tears as his body shook with guilty. He obviously hadn’t met to send his mother into a spiraling panic. In fact he didn’t even think about it until that moment how his distance would effect his mother.

quinn

"Yes, Quinn! Who else would come in here?!" She asked, but that was probably more people than she would like to know. She stopped hitting him and took a deep breath as she sat down to watch him. It was hard not to just listen to the conversation and she calmed as the minutes went out. She looked at his face and turned to look at him properly. "Fine? She sounded hysterical. It was like she..." She swallowed and shook her head. "You scared her. And me. What's going on?" She asked softly and just stared into his eyes.

sebastian

Though she tried to look in his eyes, Sebastian diverted away. This was one of his fears, that Quinn would find out everything. He had purposefully kept her close to monitor it however it seems to have back fired. Then again if Quinn wasn’t here at the moment, it’s possible that there would be police breaking down his door right now. His eyes went to the plain bed sheets. “Umm... she just was worried about me that’s all.” Though with how much his mother just flipped out, he probably wasn’t going to get away with that. How body shook has he could barely hold back the tears. Even now, facing Quinn, Sebastian was thinking about lying to her. oh I got drunk once and crash my car... told her that I was caught doing something and went to jail... I ran away... but obviously none of his crafted lies would fit. As time went on, the years came. He couldn’t control it. He wiped them away and kept his hand in his lap. “I don’t...” he struggled. He hated this moment. Sebastian made sure to always be posed and elegant. Now his charm is in the trash and he can’t stop himself from looking weak.

quinn

The blonde watched as he was obviously fighting with himself inside. She knew the look. She's done it before in a sense. "Oh, like I couldn't tell." She said softly but full of sarcasm. However, when she saw the tears, her face fell more and she reached out to touch his arm. "Hey, come on. You can tell me anything. I'm just worried about you." She swallowed and rubbed his skin. "I know for us it's hard. But we have each other, right? You don't have to keep the walls up with me." She tried to relieve hi, but she wasn't sure if it was going to work.

sebastian

no matter how much he fought against telling her, sebastian felt that there was too much between them for him to lie to her. one issue though; sebastian had never said out loud what happened. his therapist knew from his reports from his time in the hospital while anybody else who knew was told by other parties. plus, this would make quinn's next encounter with his mother awkward. he rubbed the wetness from his eyes. this was not how he imagined getting woken up by.

the words pressed against the fore front of his brain. they bore into him as if this were something that just happened. sebastian hadn't dealt fully with what happened and push aside that for booze and one night stands. "just..." he started; his words barely above a whisper. his words were slow and spaced out as  "i... she just found me after... i used a bottle of vodka to wash down pain meds-" the words barely squeaked out of his lips. the palm of his hand pressed hard into his forehead. he turned his head and shut his eyes. he couldn't stop the streak roll down his fact as those words left his lips.

quinn

The admission that came from him was definitely shocking. She didn't expect that. She knew something serious was going on, but she didn't know it was... Quinn's heart broke for him and as he turned away from her, she moved closer and wrapped her arms around him before pressing a small kiss to his head. She wanted to show him that she was there. She always would be for him. She didn't know what there was to say. It was hard to find the right words for this, but she knew just being there could be helpful. So she just kept holding him close.

sebastian

as if quinn hugged him often, sebastian wrapped his arm around her waist. he brought her close. his body fell heavy against hers and drifted so that he was laying down. his tears weren't has heavy as he suspected. in fact, that forward pounding and pressure he felt in his frontal lobe. he pushed his face into the nook between her neck and shoulder. his tears was only a light stream that was ending soon. he really didn't have much else to say about what happened. his thoughts started to collect. "thank you for coming. i..." he shook his head. sebastian's thoughts turned. all of that fall out happened ages ago, yet it was still coming back to haunt him. he balled his hands in a fist and kept his arms wrapped around her. "thanks."

quinn

She held him tightly as he cried into her body. She held back her own emotions and just focused on Sebastian. He obviously needed this and that's the only thing that was important to her. She kissed his head again and rubbed his back softly to try to help calm him. She nodded as he spoke and kept her grip on his body. "Any time. I'm always here for you." She whispered softly and closed her eyes as she leaned her head against his.

sebastian

"and im sorry for causing all this." sebastian whispered. his words didn't break through the sobs. he took in a sharp breathe as the moment passed on. for the first time since it happened, sebastian bathed in the warmed of another person. his body quaked but fell into a solid state. soon he brought his head up and wipe the snot from his nose. his septum piercing bugged him, being shoved in his nose. so he flipped it out. he played with his nose. "probably wanted a better friday night didn't you."

quinn

Quinn shook her head. "You have nothing to be sorry for." She said and ran her fingers through his hair. She cared about Sebastian more than she could ever tell him. He was definitely the best family member she had and they were just growing closer. She looked at him as he moved his head and she laughed softly before taking the end of her sweater and wiping his nose gently to not bother his piercing. "What? Discovering that my favorite cousin is alive and well?" She smiled at him.

sebastian

Sebastian snorted. “Your slap said differently. I’m pretty sure that was enough to send me the hell and back.” Sebastian commented as he continued to rub his face dry.

quinn

She laughed again. "I had to wake you up somehow, didn't I?" She smirked and looked at him. "Really, I'm glad you're okay. I'm sorry I disturbed your slumber." She smirked. "Though, I am worried that you thought you slept with my nonexistant boyfriend."

sebastian

“Oh yeah, we both know that boys tend to run away from you.” Sebastian grabbed for a nonexistent pillow.

quinn

She gasped and playfully hit his arm this time. "Do not!" She laughed and shook her head. "At least we won't have to worry about that with me now." 

sebastian

Sebastian smiled. “I’m happy for you.” He preened through his hair as she said this. He leaned over in admiration of Quinn. “You’re pretty.”

quinn

Quinn smiled back at him nodded. "Years of practice gets me this perfect." She shrugged. "You okay?"

sebastian

Sebastian snorted. “Sure. Have you spoken to your parents?” He asked. His face screwed up at the question. His emerald green eyes studied her. “First and foremost, you slapped me awake from my traditional post 72 hour cram session nap. Second, I just said something I never thought did say out loud. Three, I’m still crying. The answer is obviously yes; this is a regular Thursday night.” He sighed as he offered up a spot next to him on the twin bed. “Only difference is that I would be naked right now.”

quinn

She shook her head. "No. But that's not important right now." She told him and she moved so she was laying down next to him. "Well, you look amazing if that helps." She smirked and just stared into his eyes. "Well, I'm glad you're not naked. I don't think I need to see you like that." She laughed softly.

sebastian

sebastian snorted. "i'm pretty hot, even to a lesbian, i'd get a double take." he boosted as he placed his head down next to her. "also, how'd you get in here?" he asked curiously as he closed his eyes.

quinn

"Whatever you say." She smiled at him and looked into his eyes. "The door was open. Anyone could just walk in." She told him and laughed softly. "Good thing though, or else campus security would've busted down the door." She smirked.

sebastian

“You’re kidding.” He moaned as he threw his head back. Sebastian groaned as he pulled himself up. “You wanna spend their night?” He asked her.

quinn

She shook her head. "Definitely not kidding." She nodded and looked at him. "Sure. Might be good for someone in here to hear a phone if it rings." She teased him.

sebastian

sebastian grunted as he sat up. "let me close it. without the blonde hunk around-- i can't guarantee somebody's not gonna get in here and sniff his drawers or something." sebastian commented as he squeezed past her so that he could lock his door. he came back and wiggled his skinny body into the twin bed. he snorted at the last comment. "yeah, the most important person right now knows i'm alive. let's hope that it doesn't come back saying that she's been arrested for hitting the taxi driver for not going faster." sebastian joked as he closed his eyes. "seriously quinn... thank you though." he his voice trailed off. he really was tired.

quinn

Quinn wrinkled her nose and laughed as he got up and closed the door. She rolled her eyes and looked at him. "I'm sure it's fine." She sighed and looked over at him. "Of course. Any time. That's what family is for, right?" She said softly and stayed quiet so he could go back to sleep. After a while, she soon fell asleep herself.

sebastian

sebastian closed his eyes, but remained up for a while. he wiggled himself closer together to feel the girls warmth before he finally fell asleep.