Interviews, Premieres, and Panic Attacks
Tom Holland Imagine (Tom Holland x Reader)
Word Count: 2,112
Warnings: Language, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Fluff
Summary: You are Tom’s personal assistant and have been for some time. Tom has a panic attack at a London premiere from pressure and stress after several interviews and the fact that he was just at a premiere in LA. You are there to help him through it. He falls asleep once back at the hotel and you accidentally fall asleep there as well after the chaos of the day. What will happen when he wakes up?
A/N: This was requested by @averyfosterthoughts as a blurb, it ended up being longer than intended so here is it now, a one shot. I hope it is what you wanted lovely. So I hope you all enjoy and if it is something you all want there might be a part 2. Hope you all have a lovely day.
You have been on Tom's team as his PA for a while now so you can tell when things are starting to get to him. He has done several interviews. An LA premiere and now you are currently on the red carpet at the London premiere. You can see the distress on his face though he is trying to hide it. ‘Hey Mr. Holland look over here!’ ‘Mr. Holland over here!’ ‘Mr. Holland look this way!’ ‘Mr. Holland on your right!’ "Please don't shout at me. Please don't shout at me." He asks the paparazzi calmly. He stands in that spot a few more seconds as they continue to shout orders for him to do this, look this way, stand over there. "You call that a smile?!" Another shouts over all the others. You see the stress in his eyes and then the panic before he quickly walks away. You follow him through the door into the theater. You find him leaning against the wall. His hands are over his face as he shakes uncontrollably and it looks like he is having trouble breathing. "Mr. Holland," you say cautiously as you walk up to him. He moves his hands and looks at you, "My chest hurts," he manages to gasp out. He is having a panic attack, he has only had one other before but it wasn't this bad. "Feel like..." he takes several short breaths, "I'm dying," he finally manages to get out. "Mr. Holland, you will be alright. This will pass." You tell him calmly. "It is a panic attack, and it will pass. You are safe, it won't last long." "Tom," he breaths and you are confused at first, "please... Tom." He gasps. You know during these his responses will be short, curt. You think he wants you to call him Tom though. "Mr. Hol-" you stop yourself abruptly, "Tom." You amend and you see him visibly relax a little. "Okay, Tom do you want to go somewhere else?" You ask and he nods. "Okay, we will, right now I need you to take deep breaths for me. Okay? Can you do that?" You ask and he nods again and you watch as he tries to even out his breathing. Last time this happened you read up on what to do about it, you know touch helps but you aren't sure what to do. He is your boss, you can't just go touching him. You push that aside and take his hand, giving it a squeeze. You take only a second to call for the car so you can get him out of here. "Okay, Mr. H- Tom, the car is on its way. I am taking you to your hotel. Keep breathing for me, okay?" You smile reassuringly at him and feel him squeeze your hand in response. His breathing is starting to slow down and you are relieved. When you get the text that the car is waiting, you guide him out putting your arms around him to help him in the car, making sure no one sees. You get in after him and you see the relief in his eyes the moment you are next to him in the seat, "Don't worry. I'm not leaving," you reassure him. You are surprised when he rests his head on your shoulder and you unconsciously comb your fingers through his hair and that seems to help more than anything as you just talk to him about things he enjoys. In just a couple minutes his breathing has completely gone back to normal and he is no longer shaking. You know the panic attack is finally over. You get out of the car after him and he takes your hand as the two of you walk inside. This doesn't surprise you, touch continues to help even after the attack is over. So you don't think anything about it. In his hotel room you go to leave as he takes off his jacket, "Wait," his voice stops you, "do you mind staying with me just a little longer?" He asks and you nod. You can tell he is still upset about having a panic attack in such a public place. No one saw. You made sure of that, plus the rest of the team has confirmed it. "Of course Mr. Holland. Whatever you need," you smile kindly at him. "Please just call me Tom." Oh oops. It is hard to get out of a habit. "Sorry.. Tom," you say and he smiles weakly at you. "I think I'm going to take a nap. Do you mind staying until I fall asleep?" He asks and you see the vulnerability in his eyes. You know he hates to show that, so the fact that he is, just really proves how much today or even the past several days have messed with him. "I will stay as long as you need me to," you answer him. He smiles and grabs a change of clothes. He changes in the bathroom. When he comes back out he gets in the bed and you pull a chair up next to it so the two of you can talk. You just talk to him about silly things and you even manage to get him to laugh several times. You can tell he is feeling much better when he finally falls asleep. That is when you realize, to your horror, that you have been combing your fingers through his hair. You jerk your hand away immediately. You get up and deal with the chaos of Tom leaving the premiere early. When you are done, you feel exhausted and collapse back in the chair next to Tom's bed. What a day. Before you know it, you are asleep yourself. *** When Tom wakes up he has a splitting headache. He groans and covers his head with a pillow. Last night was horrible, and embarrassing. He can't believe he had a panic attack at a premiere of all places. His thoughts suddenly shift to you, his PA, which is something he had been trying really hard not to think about lately but that has been more difficult. His mind often wonders to you and after last night, he has a feeling that will happen even more often now. He enjoyed the feeling of your hand in his, of your fingers combing through his hair. He involuntary shivers just thinking about it right now. Tom shakes his head with a groan, he should probably get up but he just doesn't want to deal with the mess of yesterday. Unfortunately, his bladder needs to be emptied. He sits up making the pillow fall off his face and that is when he sees you, asleep in the chair next to the bed, exactly where you were when he fell asleep. Tom rubs his eyes and looks again, you are still there. Well, good at least he isn't seeing things. He feels bad, you do not look comfortable in that chair. He thinks about moving you to the bed but he's scared that will wake you. You must have been exhausted to have fallen asleep in that chair in that dress. Oh what the hell, he's going to do it anyways. He gets up and scoops you into his arms and then transfers you to his bed. He pulls your heels of your feet and then covers you up. Good, you didn't wake up. He smiles and then goes to the bathroom. When he comes out he hesitantly looks at his phone and is surprised to only see messages from his family and friends. None from his team about last night. He looks at you and sighs, you must have dealt with it last night. No wonder you were exhausted. It is while he is ordering room service for the two of you that he hears rustling coming from behind him and he realizes you must be waking up. He hangs up and looks around to see you stretching with a yawn. Your eyes meet his and then he watches them widen before you look around frantically. Tom watches as you get off the bed quickly and fix your dress, "Mr. Holland, I am so sorry! I didn't mean to fall asleep in here that was very unprofessional." You start looking around, he assumes for your shoes. "And I have no idea how I got on the bed, I was in the chair last night." Tom gets up and grabs your shoes, "You looking for these?" He holds them up. You look up at him suddenly and nod. You walk over to him and take the shoes, "Yes, thank you Mr. Holland. I will go now. I am so very sorry." Tom cringes as you call him Mr. Holland again. He has asked you so many times to just call him Tom. Last night you finally did, he was hoping you would continue to do so. It looks like that won't happen though. "Y/N it is fine. I'm the one who moved you to the bed by the way. The chair didn't look very comfortable. Thank you so much for yesterday. You knew exactly what to do." Tom sighs and decides to try again with the name thing, "And please, it's just Tom." "Thank you... Tom." He can tell it is weird for you to say his first name. "And it was no trouble at all." He watches as you sit in a chair and put your shoes back on. "I just ordered us some breakfast. It should be up here soon," Tom says. He watches as you nod, "Okay. Is it alright if I use the restroom?" Tom nods and watches you until the bathroom door closes behind you. *** Once you are safely inside the bathroom you splash your face with cold water and lean against the door. You cannot believe you fell asleep in here last night and Tom moved you to the bed?! Your cheeks are heating up just thinking about it. It is very unprofessional to have a crush on your boss. You have been trying to nip it in the bud for several months now. It just hasn't worked. You sigh and compose yourself before walking back out. You see that room service has come and your stomach grumbles. You did not eat dinner last night. Neither did Tom. You sit down at the table with Tom and he smiles at you, making your stomach flutter. It would be so much easier not to like him if he was a mean boss. Tom was very kind though, to everyone. "So I wasn't sure what you like, so I just got everything," he tells you, "plus I am starving," he adds sheepishly. "Sounds good to me," you laugh and dig in with him. Talking with Tom is easy going. The two of you have always got along well but it seems after last night the two of you have grown closer. Which honestly probably isn't a good thing, considering your crush. You have come to accept the fact that it probably won't go away and it will just be something you have to deal with. Once you finish it is time for you to go to your own hotel room. You have several things to do anyways and it is time to get on it. "Thank you for breakfast Mr. Holla- I mean Tom." He grins at your mishap, "No problem, Y/N. See you later, yeah?" "Yeah. See you." You walk to the door and Tom accompanies you. "Thanks again for last night." You hear him say as you feel him touch your arm. You turn to look at him, "No probl-" you are unable to finish your sentence because suddenly his lips touch yours but as quickly as they were there, they were abruptly gone. His cheeks are bright red when you finally look at him and you're sure yours are too, "I am so sorry, Y/N! It was- I mean-" he sighs and takes a deep breath, "I was going to kiss your cheek but you turned your head. I am so sorry!" He finally manages to get out. "I'm so sorry! I didn't know!" You exclaim, embarrassed. "I know, it was my fault. You don't need to apologize." He tells you. The both of you continue to apologize, red faced, until his hotel door closes behind you. As you walk to your own room you can't help but touch your lips and smile. You can still feel a tingle there from where your lips met his. Damn, this doesn't help your crush at all now, does it?
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