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Me: time to do my monthly reading!

Me: [pulls The Tower]

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This year, instead of doing my new year reading on New Year proper, I'm taking advantage of the new moon and I'm doing it tonight (bc IDK vibes or something, and also time.)

I have a small human, we sneak our witchy shit in when it makes sense okay

I'm going to actually share the yearly reading once I do it this time. Should be enlightening. Keep an eye out for the thread if you're interested.

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I've done a couple of readings recently, trying to get some kind of footing on this unsteady ground we're all finding ourselves on currently, and which I haven't shared here - partially because I haven't had time to dissect them like I normally do. But today I felt moved to take it a step further, and rather than asking myself a broad question, I shot higher and asked Brigid what I should do.

For Bean, specifically.

(While I'm typically agnostic at best, I've had a few conversations with friends about deity work recently, and it felt right in this instance. I won't say more about it than that for now.)

Now, for context, I need to set the scene. It's 7am, a week after I found out that we just voted a dictator back into office - something which I had stupidly thought was a near impossibility, given everything. I'm watching my daughter sleep. I'm listening to a music league playlist, and Running Up That Hill (the Placebo cover) is playing. And that's when I shoot the question, and I draw.

Well, alright then.

I cannot tell you how many times I've seen the Ten of Swords since last week. Betrayal - that's been the theme, and I feel like that accurately encapsulates my feelings right now. My country, my people, my own family let me down. Let my daughter down. And I'm in a world of hurt over it - and more than a little angry. Looking further, Ten of Swords represents an end, and that's exactly what this is. It's done. We can't go back. For better or worse, the status quo is dead.

Ten of Pentacles reminds me where my strength is: my partner, and the home we've built. In other decks, this card is represented in less bucolic terms, recalling more of a fortress. Coupled with the suit, it speaks of security. But this deck is less financially-minded, focusing instead on the human element - a reminder that I have a village to lean on. That Bean will have more than just her parents in her life that she will be able to turn to, and trust.

Nine of Wands: resilience. That's going to be the key word over the coming weeks, months, and years. It's going to be hard. Jesus fuck is it going to be hard. But we've got to keep going, and we've got to hold on, and we've got to stand against what's coming. Even if that doesn't look like open rebellion - even if it's just showing my kid in every way I can that she matters. Being in her corner every step of the way, because God knows the world isn't. Especially not now. A little reminder to brace myself.

To that end, the Knight of Cups suggests gentleness. Creativity, and kindness, and beauty - little rays of goodness to light the way. A reminder to show her those things exist too (and to remind myself for that matter.)

Finally, Death - endings again, but in a transformative sense. It's neither a positive or a negative in this context, more a reminder to adapt. Adapt and overcome seems to be the overarching message here: survive, and outlive this, and see that she does too. That's it - that's all I can do. That's all any of us can do, really.

Survive.

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I don't normally put too much actual stock in my tarot readings beyond getting my own thoughts and feelings in order, but I just looked over my 2024 new year reading just for shits and giggles and first: the fact that it marked May as a time for stalling and June as a time for great change really has me kinda fucked up, along with the fact that the entire second half of the year was marked for being emotionally difficult - which it fucking has been. But the thing that's really catching my eye right now is November/December. Ten of Swords and Judgement, just to finish the year off on a high note. And like I'm really hoping that it was just a snapshot of things to come as they were in that specific moment, but also I'm not so sanguine about my life not trying to become the worst timeline rn. So. Yeah.

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September Readings

So, the other day I did a whole ass Celtic Cross reading for September, instead of my usual 5 card pull. Just wanted to get a little extra context and direction. But also, I wanted to take some extra time with it this month and really, really sit with what it was showing me. And I think that was a good call.

For context, I started with more of a general question than I normally might have: what's our general outlook over the next 3-6 weeks? (I prefer to give CC readings a time frame so I can differentiate better between the future and outcome cards lol.) I then touched briefly on the main points I wanted to focus on: home renovation projects, writing, relationship stuff, etc.

It was... a lot of Swords. I don't normally get them a lot in readings, so when I do it tends to make me a little uneasy - especially cards like Ten. But contextually, I think the overall message here was actually rather positive (and gently scolding lol.)

So first... the cross...

Ace of Swords crossed by the Ten of Swords: we've got a lot going on right now! Lots of projects starting that really needed to be started, lots of stuff that's really engaging our brains - where are things going? How are we going to redesign our space? Will it work better? Will it work at all? It's taking a lot of planning and creativity to make happen. However, we've had a TON of setbacks and general negative bullshit happening to us throughout the process - issues with contractors, things breaking (or arriving pre-broken), shipments getting lost, a car accident, etc. It's all been getting to us a bit, and we've been kinda wallowing in our own misfortune to varying degrees, which isn't really great for keeping your brain engaged on the things you're working on. What this combination is asking us to do is quit stumbling through the streets, wailing and rending our clothes because One More Bad Thing happened, and to just get on with it - even if it sucks.

Queen of Wands in the Subconscious position: this loops back to the context of our Ace of Swords above, as this position kind of sets the foundation of the querent's mindset and position in the situation. In this context, she speaks to focused energies. We are committed to our path, and we're going to put everything we have into getting what we want. No flakiness to be found here - which considering this is an ADHD house, is amazing to hear lol.

Two of Cups in the Recent Past position: this particular card really is what cemented the idea that this reading is aimed at both of us for once lol. This card is usually a symbol of romantic love (especially new), but it can also represent partnership. Everything we're doing now is the result of joint decisions, and mutual support and effort. No one is in this alone. So despite all the bullshit, we've got each other to lean on, and that's huge. (This plus the Queen signal that we're working off a very strong foundation, and that we've at least started off in the right direction.)

King of Swords in the Crown position: so this is basically like... the aspirational self. And in the past, I might have seen this card and handwaved it away as only representing my partner (who does frequently show up as the Kings in my readings, FWIW) but it does go a little deeper than that this time. This card represents logic and intellect above all else. In short, the need to make firm, well-researched decisions before moving forward. In other words, right now we're trying to do a ton of reading and measuring and comparisons before we move forward with anything. That seems like it's been serving us well so far.

2 of Swords in the Self position: okay so this is where my deck starts calling me out for filth, because this card has to do with choices, or rather: indecision. This is something that I struggle with a ton in general, but also particularly with a lot of these changes we have going on. I get so hung up on what ifs and on others opinions that I freeze up and wait for someone else (namely my partner) to pick. That's not really cool, and it's definitely a source of some tension right now (I'm not the only one in the house suffering from executive dysfunction and decision fatigue.) I'm reading this as asking me to basically just shut up and pick one, and if it's the wrong choice, deal with it then, because...

7 of Pentacles in the Future position: I have been getting this card a LOT lately, which makes sense given the projects we're working on and the goals we're working towards - even with my writing. Progress is SLOW but it is STEADY and we are laying the groundwork for success. As long as we keep at it, we will succeed. But more importantly for our dopamine-chasing lizard brains: while the fruits of our labors are not going to be immediately evident, we're going to see some results soon. OR, worst case scenario, the proper foundations will have been laid.

Now for the staff.

8 of Swords in the Environment position: the whole point of this card is about feeling stuck, but not actually being stuck. All I have to do is try and I can most likely solve a lot of my problems myself. But anyway this one goes hand in hand with the Two, supporting the idea that I need to just do it. Adjustments can be made later, but you can't adjust nothing.

Eight of Pentacles in the Hopes and Fears position: this is a very encouraging card overall. It represents slow but steady progress, hard work, and building towards success. We're most likely on the right track, and we should keep up the good work. :)

Ten of Cups in the Outcome position: this is hands down one of the best cards to get in this position. Tens typically symbolize a sense of completeness, whether it's the end of a cycle or the achievement of a goal - and the Ten of Cups is no different. It's the happy family card. Lots of joy and contentment here (and honestly if the way I felt after I reorganized the pantry I now have was any indication, then this tracks lol.) Also, the timeline lines up with our family vacation, so... there's that lmao.

So what does this all mean in the context of the month? Basically, that it's gonna get off to a rough start, but gradually get better - so long as we actively work to make it so, and don't let ourselves wallow in the bad. Fair enough!

As for the runes and Oracle cards...

Kenaz: light, creative fire. For once, not showing up reversed lol. Might be that the brain gremlins are looking to behave!

Ansuz, reversed: communication, or rather a lack thereof in this context. There's going to be some breakdowns.

Berkana: new beginnings, growth. Lots of stuff getting set up now that mean we can actually put plans into action this month, so here's hoping!

Death: despite the name, this is similar to the tarot card in that it is more about change and transformations - consider the moth! As well as the moon (cycles.) Things are ending and beginning.

Protect: this one I'm admittedly a bit fuzzy on, but worth noting that it includes the planetary symbol for Earth. Could also include the sun, but tbh I'm getting more holy mother and child here. Gotta think about how that one fits in.

Anyway, that's September's reading (posted several days late lol.) Let me know in the comments if you've got any different reads on this than I do. :)

[lunapwrites]

Your good bitch got a new tarot deck and it is real purty

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Taking a deep breath this morning and getting in a little centering time. Naturally the cards/runes have taken the opportunity to read me for filth.

First, the rune: elhaz. Under normal circumstances, this is a protection rune. However, I pulled it reversed, so the overarching message here is that I should probably avoid making any important long term decisions today and maybe just go back to sleep until I feel better. I would love to.

The cards get more into the why of that: ten of wands is basically telling me that I'm overworked AF, which if you've been reading any of my most recent posts I think is uh. Obvious lol. Plus side here is that it also indicates a light at the end of the tunnel: I'm going to be able to lighten the load soon. Which I am! This is all temporary. Thank fucking God.

Justice is kind of a bitch in this situation because where Elhaz is like "maybe don't make a decision right now" Justice is like "okay but you have to." Which is... fair. So the lesson I'm pulling from this is that I need to take a deep breath and think things through carefully before I decide what I want to do long term, because it's important to bring some semblance of balance back into my life.

This is supported by our dear friend the queen of swords, who is politely reminding me to keep my eyes on the prize. What's my goal? What do I want? Make my decisions based on that, and not how I am currently feeling. Which is fair, because I'm currently feeling arson lol. Solid advice to live by.

The queen of cups represents feeling your way through situations and letting your emotions guide you. In this particular position though, that's exactly what's fucking me up right now. Reel it in.

Finally the emperor, which is just cool hard logic and leadership. Am I emotionally prepared for this at the moment? No. But I need to put on my big boy pants and get there because it ain't all about me. Conversely, this may also represent my partner, which... In this context is more of a cry for support. I'm going to go with a little of columns a and b, since I think that's probably the sanest way forward lol.

This is the tarot equivalent of slapping me across the face and telling me to get a hold of myself lol. Which... okay yeah fair.

The worst is almost over. If I need to find things I can let go of in the short term, I should do so after some careful consideration of consequences so I'm not having mental breakdowns in the pantry and getting into mortal combat with my household appliances.

...It's been a long month, okay?

Anyway. Here's hoping March doesn't suck ass. 🤞

[lunapwrites]

And on a related note:

Well goddamn.

I was basically checking in about yesterday, and uh. Okay I'm feeling good about this.

Ace of Pentacles is... Well, the suit of Pentacles relates to the material world: finances and health, typically. And the Ace of a suit is normally a high energy card, all about new beginnings. And that's no different here. Successful new ventures and general good fortune. I can live with that.

King of Cups very frequently comes up when I'm doing a reading relating to my partner (usually either that or King of Pentacles) so I'm not shocked to see him here. He represents a balance between the logical and emotional self: compassion and wisdom. This makes sense in this context.

Finally, the Four of Wands. This one, the meaning of mine is slightly tilted from the traditional, but at the same time those interpretations inform each other, especially within context. In this deck, this card represents transformation, rebirth, and joy. Traditionally, it's still joy but more of a general celebratory vibe rather than the very specific "positive changes" bent that this one takes. Sooooo this is an extremely positive reading overall.

Especially when combined with freaking Dagaz, which is literally "dawn." Or the light at the end of the tunnel. Everything I'm getting thrown at me today is screaming YES THIS IS GOOD EVERYTHING IS GOOD YOU WILL BE MORE THAN FINE.

I can take a hint! XD