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We've planned so much.

Too much, actually. It had me thinking for long now, "what will happen if we don't end up together? To you, to me, to both of us, to everyone affected, what will happen? Will i get over you? Or will i be one of the girls out there who chase their boyfriends because they can't get over them? Will i continue living? Or will i shut the world out of my own? Will you care for me? Or will you just walk away and never look back?" You know, i've never been scared of the future this much. Never.

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Akala ng ibang mga nasa ldr na hindi pa nagkakasama, na kapag nagkasama na sila, all the problems, the sadness, and the frustrations will go away. You haven't even seen half of it. You're going to find out things that you never knew about your partner. And, honestly, you won't like some of them. Magaaway kayo because of frustrations and expectations. Like when the image in your mind isn't coming to life. You're going to argue, from the smallest of things, to some that seems to pull you away. Don't give up. You made the fight against the big distance. Why back down now? Isn't this what you've been waiting for? Cherish it. You've showed them that a long distance relationship can happen. Show them that it lasts. The image in your mind of how life is supposed to be is usually what makes things complicated.

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Someone just asked me why i can't see you for years.

It’s sad. Everytime i remember that fact, it kills me inside. Like someone cuts me open, and rips my heart and insides out without general anesthesia. I hate it. I fucking hate it. The thought of how long that time is freaks me out. I know a lot can happen in 5 or 10 years, and i can’t take it if something happens and i can’t be with you anymore. But i can’t be that selfish. I don’t want you to lose yourself because of me. Your career, your dreams, your soon-to-be achievments. No, i’m not gonna do that. I’m letting you be what you want to be, what you should be. I’m not gonna let these feelings interfere. I’m going to wait. Wait. Wait.

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2013

Honestly, i’m pretty much glad of how everything turned out to be. I have my family with me, the love of my life, a great life to thank for, and a big God to thank to. Yes, there were rough spots that i had to overcome. But, in the end, everything was almost as perfect as it can be. He has given me enough strength to be able to have come this far. No turning back now. Cheers everyone! Have a pleasant and spectacular new year! :) Cheer up for a fresh start that has been given to us.

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Slow dancing in circles, wishing you were here to hold my hand and smile at me.

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Goodnight

I’d like to sleep with you. Not fuck or anything like that. Just sleep. Then wake up on your smile. We can have ice cream and pizza for breakfast, watch too much movies. Workout together, but i guess we’re just going to laugh at the workout videos and make silly impressions of them. Then we can cuddle while listening to the thunder and the rain. I don’t know, maybe i can steal your kisses then you can take them back. I’ll let you tickle me for a while, then protest after 5seconds or so. Then it’ll be a perfect day even though we did nothing progressive. And we can sleep, you hugging my tummy from behind, kissing my hair while whispering how much you love me, and playing with my fingers. Just like before.

Goodnight. I miss you.

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Personally

I made this blog to let out loneliness. I couldn't go through out the day without thinking of something that pertains to our relationship. I don't know, I just can't help it. And I just want to blurt it out to someone. And let's face it, not everyone would want to hear about how perfect my boyfriend is for me. Hence, the blog.