#lupitalore

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lupita!

23 y/o québécoise girlblogger extraordinaire, ♡weed♡, cats, four-leafed clovers, sprigatito :3

☆books☆: the bone season, the virgin suicides, petite-ville (fr), a series of unfortunate events, the umbrella academy, aliss (fr), the hunger games, the appointment in samarra (short story), the king in yellow, my body

☆movie/tv☆: shallow grave, jennifer's body, requiem for a dream, julien donkey-boy, skins, baby driver, brba, zero day, spun, slc punk, yellowjackets, ahs, the drama, creep + the creep tapes, obsession

☆music☆: jhariah, the real zebos, jungle bobby, tøp, the regrettes, good kid, woodkid, jesse jo stark, yungblud, lana del rey, mickey darling, the happy fits, jukebox the ghost, saint motel, p!atd

☆games☆: assassin's creed syndicate, human fall flat, lego worlds, forza, ac black flag. on mobile: wordle, meow tower nonograms, flow free, just mowing. with boyfriend: minecraft, it takes two, good job!

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just finished crying.

pingu went godzilla mode and bit our trainer, not enough to draw blood or harm her, but enough to rip her coat.

when i was 5, we had a five month old puppy who needed to be rabies tested after it bit my mum hard enough for her to need stitches. the only way to do a rabies test is by slicing the brain. mum took my brother and me to montreal for a fun day out while my dad took the puppy to the vet. i still vividly remember coming home and my dad gently telling us in the living room that the puppy wasn't home because it died. i hadn't even taken my coat or shoes off yet.

it was the sweetest puppy ever & had no prior signs of aggression, it just played a little too hard one time. my mum even crossed the border to go to the hospital for her stitches, but the new york hospital she went to snitched to the quebec government because of the possibility of rabies, which is why the puppy had to be put down so it could be tested. it did not have rabies.

i don't want the same thing to happen to pingu. tomorrow we'll have had him for six months. he'll be eight months old on monday.

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idk if this was the same for all little girls, but i used to have visions like All The Time & girls in my class said they got them too (while the boys had no idea what we were talking about) so i figured it was a girl thing. like déjà-vu but real.

my first vision that i remember was watching a fairy barbie doll in a sitting position on my bed. lasted just a few seconds. a few weeks later, it was my birthday party, and a girl from my class bought me fairy barbies (which included the one i had seen on my bed). i had never previously owned a barbie or imagined there could be a fairy one. there was no way for me to have made it up. then, at some point i relived the barbie sitting on bed scenario without having planned it out (i was 6 i had no malice in me).

throughout my childhood until i was about 17, i got these visions regularly, but they tapered as i aged & especially as i told people about them. i told my mum once when i was 12 and i was crying in her room explaining all of this but with far more detail & i remember her sternly telling me to never tell anyone about this.

has anyone else experienced this? also were you/are you a girl?

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stayed up an hour after my last post. went from being So Happy to Thoughts Of Death pretty instantaneously.

been awake now for almost an hour (heard my mum's alarm at 6am) & gave up on going back to sleep. going to take my meds and make a coffee.

this song is in my head. no one fucks with this band like i do because no one fucks with a series of unfortunate events like i do. more yapping about asoue below #lupitalore moment !!

used to dance around our living room in my childhood home to the second song of the album "in the reptile room" because the beginning has fun sounds. quickly became my favourite book in the series. i gotta reread them all sooooo bad. unsure which parent gained custody of the series in the divorce (dad bought the first six in a box set for my mother after she gave birth to my brother in 2005).

did a presentation on the first 11 books when i started grade 2 (during my first read-through when i was tasked by the teacher to present only one book & in french too (had been learning french since age 5)) <- overachieving child becomes loser adult pipeline.

the lyrics are cute and fun btw if u even care... <- the author of the series is in the band (not using his pseudonym)(learning that you can have an alias changed my life as a kid. lemony snicket/daniel handler totally blew my mind) i could talk for hours about these books. someone Please let me talk for hours about these books. please. pleeeeeease.

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been up for half an hour because pingu was barking at my door

in my nightmare people were trying to shoot and kill gooper because they said he was sick when he wasn't :( also, before that bit in the dream, i was watching shallow grave with boy and his friends but it wasn't At All like i remembered and it was even disappointingly confusing and bad. i was so sad because i was worried i had gotten attached to an objectively bad piece of media and i had hallucinated all the good bits and all the lines i liked.

another part involved me squeezing a spot and having a bug come out ? & then i opened a pickle jar (had previously eaten pickles) and there were the same kinds of bugs? not a fan

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my dream ^_^

big mansion with those inside being stalked from the outdoors by people dressed in all black + some were on horseback. watched/listened to marie antoinette (the queen herself, but looking like kirsten dunst from the movie) who had installed a megaphone into an adjoining room & instead of having sex with her husband she would make sex noises or play porn into the megaphone while she would do other things. i dream-canoned her as asexual ?

childhood home being stalked by adult lottie matthews + bunch of others but it wasn't like she wanted me in her cult, it was more like the Evil Version of her (everyone was wearing all black again) and she wanted to kill me and all my family. ran away asked someone for help. this person fortunately immediately believed me without asking questions + we sped away on their scooter (the child kind, not the motorized kind)

went to gas station + killed 2 of the evil guys in self defense with my pocketknife that my mother gave me when i turned 10 while the person on the scooter who helped me was killed by another. then a third bad guy showed up & blew his own brains out when he saw i had the upper hand. this action also killed a gas station attendant who was just scrolling on her phone right next to him while i was fighting for my life. ( @oxypill was the girl who died i fear...)

then to a diner. they had closed their blinds but there were clearly employees inside. asked if they were open and they said yeah, they just didn't want to work so they pretended to be closed. other brother with me and was his birthday. he wanted a big slushie. while it was being made i was watching the road & making sure we weren't about to be attacked.

the last part of my dream was the most complex because i invented a game. death volleybasketball ! was played in the dining room of my childhood home (surrounded by glass bookcases so that was Worrying) was like if volleyball was in an open court with basketball hoops and a smaller ball & i would be killed if they scored two goals. there were origami flower talismans that could be activated if made fast enough which would protect you against one goal, i made and used one & then, instead of burning the flower, i tried to hide it so i could use it again, but a guy on my team found it and snitched on me (even tho we were on the same team) & i was like hahaaa i just wanted to save it so i could keep it as a memento of this joyous game... and then i woke up before they killed me for cheating.

going to tag my dreams as lupitalore from now on

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i am ever so slightly (2cm) taller than charizard

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lupitalore update

still sick as fuck

planning to officially report The Evil Man (alex)

moving into new place tonight (student housing = no ventilation + incredible bullying (will talk about later))

many strong emotions... i will NOT faint (has become a problem)