#lw 2012

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JO I AM TEASED AND RIDICULED AT SCHOOL AND ALL THAT CONCERNS YOU IS YOUR SILLY LITTLE TRAGEDY

(guess what i'm doing right now that isn't writing my graduation speech)

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guys are you ready for this

i'm going to say something that will shock you all

I MISS LITTLE WOMEN MORE THAN ANYTHING

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there may be a day when I stop talking about little women

that day is not today

(actually let's be real that day is never my last words will probably be a beth march quote)

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me every other day for the past 11 months: guys i miss little women so much

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LET'S PRETEND WE'RE RIDING ON A KITE

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all my life, I've lived for loving you. let me go now.

what I should be doing: writing my spanish paper

what I'm actually doing: watching old little women performance videos and crying because I don't think I'm ever completely going to get over the fact that I'm not Beth anymore and I remember on the final performance just completely losing it and sobbing through the last section of Some Things...completely burst into tears once Jo had rolled my wheelchair completely offstage and I was so, so upset but there was something incredibly pure and beautiful about that performance because for the first and only time it felt real, I almost felt like I was dying as I sang that song because it hurt so much to end that show and I knew it was my last time onstage as Beth and I just want to do Little Women again screw Seussical because how often do you get the chance to just completely embrace a character like that and cry onstage? not in Dr. Seuss I tell you...

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my family won't stop singing "off to massachusetts" and I just cannot handle the feels

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excitement over making it into Mousetrap + post show depression because Little Women= no attention left for the essay final and two reflection papers I have to complete tonight