Hi, My name is Tyler, I`m 17 years old and I live in Canada. I`ve been dating a very precious girl, I refer to her as the Sun as she has brought much clarity into my life. The Sun and I have been dating for over a year now, but i have many mistakes that I`ll forever punish myself for. I grew up in the generic 21st century broken home. My Mother whom i lived with for a large portion of my life married a very abusive and nasty man from Iran. This man has two children with my mother, I as well as themselves have been abused physically and emotionally by said man. So I left them to live with my Father and his wife. Life is well but i found myself troubled during high-school. Looking for acceptance and attention i acted out; I would often perform stunts in front of popular children to gain respect, or disrupt classes in order to entertain. I met the Sun in the 9th grade. i found myself feeling what i figured was love. Over the 9th grade summer the Sun rid herself of me suspecting i had cheated on her when i went to visit friends, one of which being a female.(I had not cheated) I then experienced my first heartbreak. the proceeding school year i found myself lacking the love i had had with my Sun, I then began to date the girl whom the Sun had suspected me to have had cheated on her with. This relationship became abusive so i then removed myself from that situation. Between them both i had a one time occurrence with someone which i decided to keep hidden from the world as i knew it was not something to be proud of, so i kept the pain from everyone. Nobody was to know that i had fingered that girl. I failed 10th grade History and went to compensate for it in summer school. That is when i saw my beloved Sun again. We started dating again but we were both very self conscious. I kept that secret for roughly 6 months of us dating until one day it slipped. The first lesson the Sun taught me was not to keep secrets. But i did not learn my lesson so quickly. I had been watching pornography since young of age. Without the detail, It had become a habit, An addiction so to speak. When she found out her confidence had diminished again as i had ruined it on various occasions already. Again a while later my second offence was established. since then i have not lain my eyes on such things. I now follow, understand and agree with the #pornkillslove movement. Another issue that arose was when at a convention I peeped with longevity at the Sun`s friend, this i meant nothing by but regardless was incorrect of me to have done. I almost lost my Sun that day. I may not be pristine when it comes to mental heath and other issues but that`s no excuse. I refuse to let my youthful stupidities ruin what may be my one and only chance at true love for my future. I love the Sun and i wish to love her forever. This blog is hereby dedicated to positive and loving quotes,poems and vibes for the Sun whom I love ever so strongly. One day my love I will restore your mind to a state better than which it had ever been prior to said moment of reconstruction and expansion. This blog is dedicated to showing you your own beauty and kindness as well as the effect you compose on my life. I love you my Sun, I wish to be the bright night`s moon to shed light on the dark times we may face, and to lead us into a brighter and happier tomorrow.
