Mal is a self sabotaging attention seeker. That's obvious from the way he acts.
He does almost everything he does for attention. To him, any attention is good attention. Even if it ends in him getting hurt by somebody or accidentally hurting them.
Mal so desperately wants companionship, and yet is so scared of actually getting close to anybody. He has a severe fear of abandonment, and is convinced that everybody will leave him eventually anyway.
So what's the point of caring if they'll just abandon him anyway?
He's clingy, but pushes people away at the same time. He yearns to be around others, but he'll rarely truly let them close to him.
He wants their attention, but he doesn't want them to truly know him.
Because, in his mind, if even his own creator didn't want him, why would anybody else?
In a somewhat desperate attempt to avoid the heartbreak of abandonment, he ends up pushing people away. Either starting to pick at their insecurities, or by simply just… vanishing, for days at a time, somewhere he can't be tracked.
He sabotages every positive relationship he has. He pushes his friends and found family away, especially at first.
He also gets easily jealous if he isn't the center of attention or if someone he loves is giving attention to someone else.
He also gets very upset if he thinks he's being ignored.
@gretasmokerising tagged me to share 3 fun facts about myself! (thank you for the tag my love <3)
1. when i was a baby, i ate so many carrots that my skin turned orange. i had to go to the doctor, and i was banned from eating carrots for a while.
2. i can draw multiple simpsons characters from memory.
3. when i was in the fourth grade, i won first place in my state’s annual social studies fair. my project was on the ancient egyptian mummification process, and i mummified an orange peel as part of the project.
i’m tagging @myfriendtheghost @takenbythelightfantastic and @canyonmoonkiszka (sorry if you guys have already been tagged, and anyone else who sees this is welcome to participate!)
Mal currently runs a Maid service. If you ever ask him about it, he’ll deny it initially, but hand you a business card. He only cleans, however; get your mind out of the gutter.
every time i remember that my mom wanted to name me victoria but didn’t i get a little upset bc not only have multiple people told me i look like a victoria but also my nickname would’ve been vicki which is so cool
i was tagged by my darling @loser-user-noaccuser (thanks for the tag love) so let’s go!
(i’m also gonna tag @takenbythelightfantastic @shutupdevvie and @myfriendtheghost but if you see this and i didn’t tag you, feel free to participate anyway!)
what book are you currently reading? i just started shady hollow: a murder mystery by juneau black. i’ve been meaning to read it for ages, so i’m excited to finally get around to it.
what’s your favorite movie you saw in theatres this year? this is really hard to pick because i did see a lot of films this year, most of them screenings of older movies. my top three are probably labyrinth, goodfellas, and rear window. i do feel that elvis deserves an honorable mention as well because i did really enjoy that and it made me cry multiple times.
what do you usually wear? it depends on the day. if i’m at home i just wear athletic tights and a t shirt, but if i’m going to class i’ll throw on a cardigan as well and sometimes wear jeans instead of tights.
how tall are you? i’m 5′3″
what’s your star sign? do you share a birthday with a celebrity or historical event? i’m a pisces! i also share a birthday with johnny cash and victor hugo (and i’m one day away from sharing one with george harrison)
do you go by your name or nickname? they’re pretty interchangeable tbh. some people call me mallorie, but just as many call me mal.
did you grow up to be what you wanted to be as a kid? yes and no. i think that who i am as a person is the type of individual that i’ve always been and wanted to be, but in the tangible sense of a career, lifestyle, etc., i’m still in a transitional period of my life and can’t say yet if i’ll reach the more material goals set by my childhood self.
are you in a relationship? if not who is your crush if you have one? i’m not in a relationship, and i don’t really have any crushes aside from my multiple famous/fictional/tumblr mutual babygirls.
what’s something you are good at vs something you are bad at? ever since i was a child, i’ve been pretty talented in the arts (singing, acting, visual art, etc.) and i did really well in school, but i am absolutely terrible at sports or really anything atheltic.
dogs or cats? both! although i don’t know if i could live without a dog.
if you draw/write or create in anyway what’s your favorite picture/favorite line/favorite etc. from something you have created this year? it’s definitely this (technically unfinished) painting that i did of george harrison at the beginning of the year. i consider it one of my best works to date, and it was done at a time when i was really deep into a beatles phase so i think my love of the band and george really manifested into the work.
what’s something you’d like to create content for? oh my gosh there’s so many things. i’m really big into any kind of pop culture/media so i draw a lot of celebrities that i love and things like that. i’d really like to continue to make art that shows my love of the beatles, but i would like to branch out into making art for some of my other loves like john denver, gvf, and the muppets. i’d also love to give writing fanfic for any of the fandoms i’m in a try.
what’s something you are currently obsessed with? well i’m obviously obsessed with the beatles and gvf, but i also adore john denver, the solo works of all the beatles, the muppets, the simpsons, film (particularly old hollywood and 80s films), and a million other things. i’ve also been hyperfixating on seinfeld a bit lately bc that’s the show i’m currently watching.
what’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year? i think every year i convince myself that i’ll make new irl friends and finally have a full friend group or even get into a relationship, but that never really happens much. (although i am thankful for all of the darling friends i have made on tumblr. y’all mean so much to me.) i also went see paul mccartney in concert this year and while it was amazing and by no means disappointing, it didn’t hold the life-changing gravity that i thought it would, and it almost made me a bit sad because it reminded me how much time has passed since the beatles and that the people that i really care about won’t be around forever.
what’s a hidden talent of yours? i’m pretty good at impressions! i can do a lot of them, but some of my favorites are miss piggy, cher, bob dylan, chubby checker (specifically singing the twist), a ton of simpsons characters, jerry seinfeld and jimmy stewart. (the last two aren’t always great but they really make me laugh.)
are you religious? yes, but it’s a bit complicated. i was raised catholic, but i find that i don’t agree with all of the teachings of the catholic church, so now i’m trying to find where i stand in the religious community and where my beliefs and morals fit. it’s something i’m working on and figuring out as i go along.
what’s something that you wish to have at this moment? happiness, love, and peace
i was tagged by my sweet darlings @loser-user-noaccuser and @allieisacrybaby (thanks so much y’all <3)
comfort movie: i have a lot, but my usual go-tos are clue, labyrinth, when harry met sally…, howl’s moving castle, and the simpsons movie
comfort food: mashed potatoes or a peanut butter and syrup sandwich
comfort song: romeo’s tune by steve forbert
comfort clothing: in the cooler temperatures it’s a pair of grey flared yoga pants with a faded yellow tshirt i got in destin and sometimes a rainbow tie dye hoodie thrown on top. when it’s hot i wear some black athletic shorts with an oversized, obnoxiously colored hawaiian shirt that a high school friend gave me
comfort book: dreaming the beatles by rob sheffield
comfort game: this old fantasy i spy game that i used to play all the time as a kid, particularly the medieval and outer space sections of the game
i’m tagging my babygirls @shutupdevvie @myfriendtheghost @takenbythelightfantastic @samkooszka and @canyonmoonkiszka
