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sunrise @ 7:26 am. 1/29/15

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the only thing keeping me sane are these skies that bring a little bit of hope (at Oak Ridge, Tennessee)

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as long as there is someone in the sky to protect me, there’s no one on earth that can break me. #joeystrong (at Lexington, Kentucky)

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Life sucks but the skies are utterly beautiful (at Oak Ridge, Tennessee)

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oak ridge high school sunrise

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Hello everyone. Thank you so much to everyone that took their time to come here tonight. I love how Joey has brought us together, as a community. Friends are being reunited, apologies are being said, and eyes are being opened. It's amazing, how much good he's doing to us, even now, when he's gone. I know Joey is enjoying this, even from up there. If you look up closely, and believe, you can see him smiling down at us... Joey was there for me at my lowest times, he was there when I needed a friend to talk to, or when I needed someone to put a smile on my face. Joey was sarcastically funny, mean at times, but kind in the heart. He saved my life multiple times, by telling me how important I was. I really wish he would of taken that advice to himself also, but god does these things for a reason. I specifically remember, when I began to self harm last year, Joey saw me in biology class and recommended on what to put on my scars so they would heal, and also convinced me to stop harming myself. Joey has not only impacted my life when he was here, but he also has even when he's gone. When I found out about this tragedy, I couldn't believe it. I thought, Joey? No..they must have the wrong person, Joey's so happy he would never do this. It's honestly hard to even believe it right now. But anyways, as I began to realize that it was Joey..I began to think, wow, everyone's gonna be as devastated as I am.. I can't even imagine. And it made me realize a lot of things...all the devastation I could've caused too, all those times where I thought of ending my journey. Joey opened my eyes, made me realize that people in this world do love me, that I just need to stop being so blind, and if god gives me the chance, then I have a whole future ahead of me. And I feel like I owe this to Joey, he always wanted me to be happy and living, so for all the favors he did for me, I'm gonna give him this favor: whatever happens, I won't let it bring me down, Joey would of pushed me to keep going, and now he's pushing me through every step of the way, he's guiding me. He's guiding all of us. Now I know these past couple of days have been hard for all of us, but we've survived, haven't we? Because Joey is with us every step of the way. He's our angel. Now words to Joey? Well, gosh I love you man, I miss you. I can't wait to see you again and have you step on my shoes again. Have fun up there, you loving giant. 💙

A speech that I will never say out loud. (Marialy Ayala❤️)