authors note: here's part two ! thank you guys for all the love <3 special shoutout to @m-agiql and @spookybibs for the spam of notifications last night lol I really appreciate it! maybe ill start doing this more choosing a people to shoutout ;)
word count: 1544
warnings: smutty and angsty (the best combo)
*gif credit to owner**
Bucky’s pov
The two were in a cab heading to bucky’s house since it was closer. It felt like fire, in a good way kissing Y/N felt like the flame that bucky needed to ignited inside of him. Y/N was the fire he needed inside of him, Y/N was what bucky needed to feel alive. “Y/N I really like you”. Y/N stopped kissing him and...just stared at him. Bucky could see her mind was going a mile a minute. “I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that I barely know you and you barely know me. This is probably just gonna be a fling even though I don't want it to be. Well I mean I-”. She was laughing Y/N was laughing, “I like you too Bucky. You seem like a great guy.” she giggled. Bucky wanted to hear that sound as many times as he possibly could. Y/N kissed his lips gently, “You don’t need to be worried with me.” “I know we just met but I don't want to lose you I feel so drawn to you.”
Then Bucky saw something else flicker in Y/N’s eyes. She drew a deep breath “Me too Bucky.” Bucky couldn’t wait anymore he went straight for her lips again. The cab driver informed the two ‘lovebirds’ (cab drivers words not bucky’s) that they had arrived at Bucky’s apartment. Very calmly the two paid and left the cab and entered the apartment but when the door shut that’s went the fire came back in between the two. Bucky pressed Y/N against the door, she moaned from the pure strength Bucky possessed and the pleasure she received from Bucky’s mouth. Bucky had to hear that again he lifted Y/N up around his waist and she gripped her legs around him and the universe answered his prayer because he found the sticking point in Y/N’s jaw while on the way to his room. “Strip for me” Bucky said with such authority Y/N felt her knees go weak. But being the minx she is Y/N decided to push him. “And if i don't sargent?” Bucky growled at the name rolling so sensually off her lips. “I’ll show you what happens princess.” Y/N felt a twinge of regret after hearing how deep Bucky’s voice had become. In a flash both Bucky’s and Y/N’s clothes were gone thanks to Bucky. Agonizingly slowly Bucky brought Y/N to his lap, she sat and moved his throbbing cock to her hole. And slid down it, she gripped Bucky’s shoulders and whispered in his ear, she was ready to move. But bucky had other plans, he stayed motionless inside Y/N’s warm channel. Y/N clenched and unclenched unable to control how loud she was moaning. “Mmmm Bucky please” “That's not my name prinţesă” Y/N moaned once more, “Pleaseee sargent” “Are you sorry? I'm not even sure I should give any pleasure for the attitude you have towards me. Now that I think about it I have some emails I need to respond to.” bucky grabbed his cell phone that was nearby. And began to check his emails like he promised. Y/N was losing it, she couldn’t believe how calm bucky was with his cock perfectly hitting the spot she needed but not moving. Y/N swore she almost blacked out when bucky pulled out and slammed into her with such force she let out a yell. Bucky switched so Y/N was on her back and for a moment he was lost in her beauty and sudden familiarity? Bucky didn't focus on that instead focused on pleasing her to the fullest extent. And when Y/N yelled sargeant as she came down from her high Bucky knew he achieved that. Before he came Y/N pulled him out from inside of her to both their discontent and began to lick Bucky’s slit and stroke the rest of his cock. Bucky grabbed Y/N’s hair and pushed her down on his cock until she gagged and he came harder than he thinks he’s ever came before. Y/N was painted in bucky’s cum she dragged one finger across her cheek and sucks on her finger sweetly. “Y/N I really care about you .” Y/N froze and began to cry. Bucky didn’t know how to react.
Y/N’S POV
Y/N couldn’t hold it in anymore she had to cry she had to tell him her true intentions. “I’m not a mean person I never wanted to hurt you it’s just that you hurt me so badly. I wanted to hurt you just as badly, I wanted to be cruel i had this whole thing planned out and i can't do it. I'm not strong enough because even after two years i thought i was over you but im not im 100% not over you james.” y/n said as she sobbed in bucky’s arms. Bucky was beyond confused, “Y/N what are you talking about?” Y/N stopped, everything stilled “you seriously don’t remember do you?” Y/N stood up and wiped her eyes, “I have to go James, have a nice night” Bucky begged “Wait Y/N please talk to me. I have no idea why your flustered.” Y/N just walked out with her plan still on her mind but at this point some changes were made. “James don’t touch me let me leave.” Bucky refused to let her leave without an explaination, Y/N was furiously whipping her tears as she tried to get out of the apartment, “Stupid door unlock!” Bucky placed his hands on either side of you blocking you from opening it. “Please prinţesă, talk to me” Y/N took in a shaky breath. “James I-” “Please don’t call me james i love when you call me bucky” “you loved when everyone in high school called you james.” Bucky eyes went wide “Y/N Y/L/N?” Y/N didn’t say anything, Just in monotone voice said “No Y/N Rogers” “Y/N we went to the same high school?” Y/N let out a humorless laugh, “God you’re thick. Yes! I was the girl who wasn’t as skinny as other girls and the one who wasn’t popular. I’m the girl you asked on a date a month before graduation and you stood me up ! I waited four hours for you the restaurant stayed open an extra hour because he felt bad for me!” Y/N began to get angry with Bu- James. Y/N began to poke Bucky in the chest she was furious. “And the fact that you don't care goes to show you never really cared about me.” Y/N scoffed. “God and I actually felt bad because I THOUGHT about hurting you i had never even intended to go through with it.”
Bucky POV
Bucky did remember that night, he did remember Y/N in high school, he knew he made a massive mistake but he didn’t want to lose you now. Bucky sighed “Y/N i remember it, I remember how much of a dick i was i remember going to get drunk with my friends instead of being with you i remember thinking of you.” Y/N seemed like she didn’t believe him, “Oh pity me James.” Y/N rolled her eyes. “Y/N there’s no excuse for what I did to you, and if you choose to not forgive me i completely understand just know that my mind was not in the right place in high school the only thing that mattered to me were; steve, booze, and being and staying popular. And the day I asked you out after school we were alone, laughing and talking and I felt like I could be myself i felt like you knew me more than all of those so called ‘friends’ of mine. I wanted to be with you but- i was dumb i feared what people with think more than what you would think of me. So the day we were supposed to hangout Steve called and told me sam wanted to hangout and I wanted so desperately to go to you but I knew they would come and just bother us. Also, I didn't want to share your attention i wanted you all for myself and i made it worse instead.” Bucky felt as though he was going to cry, but he held back until a tear fell across his cheek. “Bucky, honey i understand. You were really dumb in high school” Y/N said with a gigglr and a wink. “Oh there she is!” Y/N’s head tilted to the side “Who’s here?” “My beautiful prinţesă. I will never hurt you like that again. I want to promise you that.” Y/N felt her heart go warm, “I accept that promise James Barnes.” Y/N said as she wrapped her arms around bucky’s neck. The two shared a kiss, Y/N was right before when she thought one of them was completely unbeknownst as to what was to come because Bucky utterly surprised her tonight. Well this heartbroken girl finally got what she wanted, pure love from the one she loved the most.
Warnings: smol buck being insecure but nothing much
A/n: this is just a short little imagine I wanted to write since it’s summer time and I feel like my smol buck would need sometime before he felt comfortable around the reader shirtless. This is just a fluff imagine it’s not so sweet you’ll get a cavity but I’m hoping you’ll ‘awe’ at least once.
-”Doll, maybe we could just go to the aquarium its just like the beach.”
-” Buck i want you to be honest with me, please.”
- “(y/n) It’s just that you’re like a supermodel and I’m the broken hydra agent. When i take my shirt off everyone is going to stare at my arm”
- “Buck i am so far from perfect in society’s eyes but i want you to know that we both have our scars and that’s what makes us differnent but perfect in each others eyes. I dont care if you wore a giant wizard’s hat and people started to stared at you. I wouldn’t notice it as long as it made you feel more comfortable. I want you to be able to tell me anything. I dont want to force you to go somehwere where you’ll be uncomfortable but i want you to be able to trust me and yourself. You are not your past self you are James Buchanan Barnes, not the winter solider.”
- Bucky could feel the tears in his eyes he knew the journey to loving himself would be rough but at least he knew alongside (y/n). It would be a journey he wouldn’t have to make alone .
-“Thank you (y/n). You don’t know how much I love you and appreciate everything you’ve done for me “
- “I love you too dork,” (y/n) said with a smirk “Now let’s go to the beach, I need a tan so badly”
