“ … nothing. you don’t have to tell me anything.” and he means it even if it breaks his heart. Sakura doesn’t owe him anything in spite of their shared past — perhaps because of it. he knows he has long since lost his place - as meagre and insignificant as it was - in her life, and Kakashi has accepted it.
unfortunately, he’s loyal to the very marrow of his bones; even if she spat in his face or declared her absolute hatred for him, a part of him will always look out for her. he’s always been notoriously terrible at leaving the past where it belongs. “ but it would’ve been nice to know that you’re alive and safe. we were worried. ”
sighing softly, Kakashi’s tired gaze drops to sandalled feet, the curve of his spine deepening further as though an unseen force is trying to see how far he can bend before he breaks. “ you said you wanted to leave. ” why does this keep happening? where did it all go so wrong?
there’s a pause as Kakashi considers his words, fists clenching and unclenching in his pockets, an odd pressure seizing his throat as tension stretches taut between them.
“ okay, ” he agrees, because he trusts that she has thought this through. Sakura has always been the smart and rational one, after all.
“ okay, ” he repeats, because he needs to convince himself that it is.
“ i’ll revoke your rank and citizenship — on one condition. you’ll wait until you’re properly healed and rested, and no sooner than that. if you leave before that, you’ll become a missing-nin, Sakura. ” his voice rings hollow. Kakashi inhales deeply, searching within himself for the strength that has stopped him from crumbling beneath the sheer weight of the hokage’s mantle. “ do you understand? if you refuse to honor this, konoha will hunt you down. ”
No one knew the story why pragmatic, level-headed Haruno Sakura had suddenly appeared overnight in mute, ruined shock in the place where virtually nothing had broken her. Why she looked as though a ghost had possessed her, why the bundle in her arms was held with such vicious defensiveness. A second and secret life in the Shikkotsu Forest she’d been living for the past four years, culminated to nearly dying bearing the daughter of a forbidden union.
Sakura blinked mutely from the bed as Kakashi spoke, knowing he was right. Knees curled like a frightened child to her chest, she held Sarada just tightly enough that she wouldn’t suffocate.
She’s exhausted, and she wants to sleep. But, she can’t. Everywhere she looks, some Danzo in the darkness is waiting to snatch her baby’s eyes, and she has to remain vigilant here. Sakura misses the endless howl and roars of the Forest’s kaiju already.
“I’m sorry,” Sakura managed to say, lower lip worrying, too exhausted to stifle such frank emotions. Her voice is hoarse with disuse. “B-But, please, don’t-- don’t tell anyone who she is! I-If they find out, she’ll--” Bitterly, she can’t even finish the thought, shoulders shaking as she chokes on a sob.
How does she articulate her gratitude? For all of Konoha’s flaws, the black roots she’d helped expose, its Hokage were kind. Sensei, friend, or otherwise.
But it’s not safe. Sarada is a target if her heritage was revealed; greedy people hungry for Sharingan and their secrets liable to circle like vultures. Sakura’s stronger now, isn’t she? She’s a sage. Even if not a fully-mastered one, she’s more powerful than she ever was. Rheumy teal eyes wander to one of Katsuyu’s cat-sized clones, a smaller one guarding the perimeters outside. It was irrational, but it was enough.
“...I’ll stay.” Sakura swallowed her fear, tremulously. “I’ll stay.”