#may72021

[howiwishthingsweredifferent]

a dream come true!!

It’s been almost a year since I last posted on here and so many things have changed. Since May 19, 2020, I went through two more recurrent miscarriages in September and November. Right when Nes & I decided to stop trying, we actually conceived in December. I’m now currently FIVE MONTHS PREGNANT. I surprisingly don’t even think about my ex anymore. I posted on Instagram last week (the same time I told my family) and I KNOW my ex along with others I used to be friends with saw it. Oh did I also mention I’m engaged?! 

It finally feels like my life is falling into place and I can’t help but feel blessed. I really got my happy ending-- a man who loves me and has always had the same goal since day, a supportive family, and a baby girl on the way. Life honestly could not get any better right now. 

I’m no longer in a mental competition with my ex anymore either. In the last post, I talked about wanting to have a baby before him, but now that I’m doing just that AND getting married, I have officially left him and our past IN THE PAST. And now since Nes and I are coming up on 4 years next month, he would be my longest relationship making it the very last thing I had to compare my ex to. I’m so glad he’s 100% out of my mind and I can now focus on my future. I’m healed. And I did that without having complete closure. 

This will most likely be the last thing I post before I delete both Tumblr accounts for good. It’s been a fun ride, but I’m better now. No more problems. No more venting. Just pure happiness. I’M GONNA BE A MOM!!

[almfineartandphotography]

#TBT: Happy “Throwback Thursday” everyone!! Don’t forget to purchase this week’s edition of “The Eastwick Press”, out in select Rensselaer County locations, just in time for another Day!! This week’s edition included my story about the 136th Annual Stag Dinner held at the Hoosick Falls Country Club for the retired & disabled veterans previously in the 32nd Separate Company. Also included in here is a photo I took of my friends, Miranda & Soheila, holding up fish and sandwich meat at last Friday’s Mass Food Giveaway held at Grafton Lakes State Park. Thank you to my friend, Soheila at the Sycaway M&T Bank for volunteering with me that day & for supporting this great cause!! This afternoon after today’s distribution, I attended a dinner outing at the Rensselaer County Sheriff’s Department in honor of “National Corrections Officers Week”!! Thank You Undersheriff P.J. Higgitt, for inviting my boss & I to attend your event. Although my boss had a prior commitment, it was an honor to represent the paper and be acknowledged for the work & truth we all bring to our stories you read in “The Eastwick Press”!! Thank you for your support of us & the newspaper and what you do to keep our county safe!! Happy Thursday!! Stay healthy & safe!! #ALMFineArtAndPhotography, #TheEastwickPress, #May72021, #ThursdayMay62021, #Volume30, #Number19, #PageOne, #PageEight, #PageNine, #FrontPageNews, #FridayApril302021, @eastwickpress , @graftonlakesstatepark , @mandt_spotlightshop , #RensselaerCountySheriffsDepartment, #TroyNY, #NationalCorrectionsOfficerWeek, #ThankYouOfficers, #EventPhotography, #PhotosByAmyModesti, #StoryByAmyModesti, #April2020, #May2021, #IPhone11, #GraftonNY, #MassFoodGiveaway, #EnjoyTroyNY, (at Rensselaer County, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/COjmDSepal3/?igshid=1is543i4xxw01