I hate when I can't write, it's more than writers block, I just feel like words are no good, like I can't even speak... it gets all jumbled inside me and stuck somehow and at times it hurts to hold it in, literally, I know the pain in my jaw is from holding back the truth and I know I'm still finding my own voice (🎼 superior with distinction) especially since at times I don't think it's even really mine to feel or fear because I'm not afraid of using my words to say how I'm feeling, I'm not even scared to be wrong sometimes because well, for one I've fixed it, two I'm better for it, three I'm faster now and four... letters is nothing to me. But it's also everything to me. Is that all? But are words ever enough? Is that why I've been having trouble spelling out the long one? Is that why sometimes I'd rather say nothing at all? Well, I guess I've got one more thing to say now: hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia