“I’m not like a car you can fix up. I’m never gonna run right.”
new moon ! accepting ! ft @hearoic
she hasn’t cooked a proper meal in years, and she keeps her back towards stefan as she scowled at the cooking supplies. there were so many less cooking supplies when she used to cook for her brother. she stares angerly at the selection of knives.
when she turns to face him, her expression is smooth, a mixture of caring compassion and patience. she soothes her hands over the skirts of her dress, and in some recess of her mind, she’s praying for the day she can have a meal delivered to her.
“ i’m a lady , stefan, ” blonde lashes flutter at him, and for a moment she’s the picture of demure, “ i know nothing of cars. ” she walks around the kitchen, the heels of her boots a dull thud that echos in the empty salvatore manor, to sit at the table with him.
she studies him, focuses on those blue eyes that remind her too much of her own deceased younger brothers. the tips of her fingers reach out to trace the sharp line of his cheeks, and her own expression remains unguarded, soft and a little bit sad when she looks at him. it’s another day of winter before the soft sun of spring can push away the lingering darkness.
her hand drops into her lap, and the vampire allows the silence to linger between them for only a moment longer. “ none of us are ever like the person we were before we’re turned. it’s a constant fight between good and evil, between light and dark. ” she clicks her tongue before looking down at her hands in her lap.
“ my village killed my brother. they burned our home down thinking i was inside. they knew what i was. ” she admits, says the words for the first time since it’s happened. “ i slaughtered the whole village and my humanity wasn’t even off. none of us are ever just good, we’re never a newly bought car or a horse. we get dinged up, we get bruised, but we have to keep getting up, stefan. ” she finally looks at him, full of resolve.
“ we get up and move on and try again, and that’s the most beautiful part about all of this. it’s the most human part of all of us. ”