#memo: e.

[terranoctis]

[terranoctis]

pixel dreams

I had a dream she woke up beside you wondering if you were real.

Her whole life has been that constant chase, wondering if the people she had loved her whole life had been that mere illusion of a dream or if the truth you told her about chemicals had wired them all into believing their love for her. Had she been wired into loving you? Had she fell out of a dream into only another nightmare? She wondered this every night hearing your steady breathing by her ears and she wondered this every morning when you inevitably curled up into her. 

She did not know, but she wanted to believe you. She wanted to believe that each little tidbit you told each other to confirm the truth of what you had here, in the now, in this waking reality of hers, that it all meant something. That even though she wanted nothing more to fall back into that dream with the people she loved, that even though the thought of being there again was just a dream, she also understood the single truth of how you had crept into her heart too. She liked falling asleep to the sound of rain against the windows of this smoky world with you. 

You were the first person she chose, when every single other thing in her life had been chosen for her. You were the first person she loved of her own free will. 

And that had changed the whole course of her story. I think of this as I close my eyes as her, letting her slip into a mercifully dreamless sleep for once, your fingers anchoring her to the little lighthouse that is you in this world. 

[terranoctis]