Aug 11, 2014
i had the most terrifying dream the other day that my dad, who died four years ago on the 6th this month, was alive, and id told him i was gay, and he tried to commit suicide. i cant remember everything about that dream, but i know for a fact that happened. i live in pain every day wondering what he would've said, because my whole life, all i ever wanted was to make him proud. he loved me, and was so proud, but i dont know if he'd still be proud of who i am today, and that causes me intense pain and fear. i havent told my mom, my brother, or my best friend that, because im sure they'll think ive lost my damn mind more than i already have.