May 1, 2018
first it was my father, then my teachers, then, when I had lost everything and I was at my most vulnerable, it was the doctor who turned my body into a weapon of her own design. through so much of that life I was abused in the most intimate and horrible ways and yet, now that I am free of it, I crave the helplessness, the fear. I /miss her/. why do I miss her?! she did nothing but use me for her own enjoyment and further my pain! perhaps I think that I deserved it. perhaps I still do. -Genji