#merlin character study

[andromaex]

merlins relationship with daegal is what his relationship with mordred would look like if he had not known abt the prophecy

[timelesswhisper]

Let's dive into Merlin's trauma!

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“I’m not a soldier,” Merlin chokes out between sobs.

Gaius rubs his back, letting the boy bury his face in his shoulder and cry it out.

“I’ve never-“ The words get stuck because he can’t chose between killed and murdered. A hiccup precedes another wave of sobs.

“You saved the Prince’s life,” Gaius reminds him. “You did a good thing.”

Over time killing becomes easier. There are times when Merlin thinks himself capable of outright murder. He wearily eyes Mordred as he becomes closer to Arthur and knows himself capable of horrific things.

He wouldn’t wish this upon anyone; to love someone so much you lose yourself to it. He wishes he didn’t know how far he’d go, how far life, destiny, circumstance would push him, but he does know and for Arthur he’d bloody his hands a million times, carry the burden of death and murder as long as he keeps Arthur by his side.

[datamyfrienddata]

hit 'em right between the eyes (a dark!Merlin mix) (x)

i. my songs know what you did in the dark - fall out boy ii. seven nation army - the white stripes iii. monster - imagine dragons iv. just one yesterday - fall out boy v. hurt - johnny cash vi. mad world - gary jules vii. seven devils - florence and the machine viii. please, please, please let me get what i want - the smiths ix. you're gonna go far kid - the offspring