#metas:

[yousought]

It's just come to my mind that gwyn's excessive training and almost obsessive desire to be perceived as a strong opponent is a coping mechanism to deal with her ptsd.

Not only does she want to be perceived as strong because if she is strong then it will not happen again because she can defend herself, because they will be affraid of her. Not only does she want to be strong for others as a way to not feel helpless herself, but also training keeps her mind occupied from ugly, intrusive thoughts of: did i deserve it? Was it because i was jealous of catrin? Was it my fault?

[yousought]

i have kinda a lot of meta to write down about sangravah now that i've freshened up on gwyn's parts on the books!! I see it as kind of the center of the fae cult in prythia. i think it similar to a holy territory where all the priestesses and religious power congregate. So i believe that sangravah's temple was purposefully targeted by hybern to begin with. It wasnt a random attack. Destroying the temple sends a message.

i think i said it before but i view the priestesses as a very individual group, whose morality and spirituality are above and beyond the fae and high fae. i think they are kinda detached from the outside world not only physically but also spiritually and morally. So it makes sense that gwyn would seek hiding in the library because it feels like neutral ground where it is not only quiet but also a place for self reflection like the temple was.