Feb 26
I need to start blogging my feelings because holy shit.
Trying to deal with a bout of depression around and on your birthday is fucking hard.
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I need to start blogging my feelings because holy shit.
Trying to deal with a bout of depression around and on your birthday is fucking hard.
Just some thoughts spilling here
Sometimes i feel i am neurodivergent and other times makes me feel like im not or im not neurodivergent enough. Imposter syndrome maybe?
Not a fan of these sudden waves of sadness that keep hitting me randomly.
Its leaving me so aware how i feel i don't fit in and how some are just too intense for me (and thats okay, were just on different wave lengths).
I might be feeling a bit too sensitive atm to whats going on that its just murkied everything up.
The feeling of not fitting in is very strong today. Ive cried several times. Wth is wrong with me?
Just venting and expressing
Ive been focusing on housework, swallowing my brain in music and fallout 4, loosing myself in the manga "kindergarten wars". And yet the moment i stop, i suddenly get overwhelming sadness and tinitus.
Trying hard to not dwell on the pain from my body or the bad luck of breaking my tooth. These lousy mood swings and knowing i aint good company. Its all so just tiring. Ive been wanting to draw but my wrist has been hurting so much its been leaving me feeling unconfident. Its annoying because i have an image in my head i wanna draw out and just blaaah ~
Fathead and I watched Frankenstein tother day and that was incredibly good. He's been yapping and telling every man and his dog to watch it. Movies this past year have been good, especially those from the horror genre.
Kindergarten Wars has become my current favourite manga. Its so silly and moving, i enjoy the grip it currently has on me. I cant wait to see how this goes and the anime thats to come out. The new Ranma 1/2 season looks incredible. I cant wait to watch that, im so glad theyre so faithful to the manga.
Enough brain spilling for now.
Just a mini vent
Feeling frustrated with myself atm. Theres so many things i want to do but it feels as if my body is failing me in doing them. House work feels never ending. Nerve pain in my right hip again. Left wrist is playing up too and being painful. Its all so draining rn. I want to draw. I want to alter clothes. I want walk to improve myself health. I want to sleep restfully.
2 posi things; frankenstein is brilliant and fallout 4 has consumed me. (Its been great playing it again after so long.)