You don't have to be accomplishing anything, take it easy, there is no need to strive or contend, you're under no obligation to achieve something spectacular in your life, that's pure hubris, no one is judging you out there, very few people in the world actually are thinking anything at all about you, which is a relief, just breathe, take it easy, this sadness will pass, it will abate, no it won't but you'll have to learn to live with it yet again anyway, take it easy, try not to be thinking about anything for a second, concentrate on your breathing, stifle a sob if you must, take it easy, you don't have to be productive with your time, life is too short for that, breathe, in and out, just breathe, you don't have to beat yourself up for not filling your time with more important pursuits and undertakings of some creative character, don't be hard on yourself, of course you'll be missing them all like crazy, that goes without saying, without saying, saying, but take it easy, just breathe, it gets late earlier and earlier these days, keep standing right there breathing, it's all right, take it easy, you don't have to be learning foreign languages for God's sakes or mastering the art of a handstand or juggling five tennis balls at once or losing a lot of weight, it's perfectly fine that you won't ever be starring in the NBA or dancing any major or minor ballet parts on the Mariinsky stage, granted that was an unfortunate thing to think or say, but the word is not a sparrow, take it easy, admittedly you won't ever see St. Petersburg again, so what, it's is not the end of the world, just accept it, generally accept everything without questioning, that's the way the old cookie crumbles, nothing needs to be too much of an effort at this point, not anymore, just living itself is enough, it's plenty enough, enough of an effort, if something's eating you ignore it, the time of your being hungry yourself is behind you, you don't have to start and finish a novel, the new "War and Peace" or "Moby Dick," nor can you cure cancer, the world has no such expectations from you, just be quietly thankful for having had those beautiful people in your life, just breathe, take it easy, still being here at this point is plenty enough, even though it doesn't feel that way, them's the breaks, take it easy, you don't have to relive your entire past in your mind, there can be no satisfactory closures in life, especially not ones supposed to be arrived at under pressure from yourself, life is not about that, it's not about anything, take it easy, you've had your turn in this word, be grateful, that should be enough, just breathe, remember them with gratitude, your heart doesn't need to be heavy with regret, life passes very quickly indeed, any child knows that, sometimes too quickly and sometimes not quickly enough, take it easy, that was a silly thing to think or say, breathe, you don't have to do anything now, just be there, just stay here, just breathe, in and out, standing by the window, looking out with unseeing eyes, have a potato chip or something, why not, survive, breathe, be, that should be more than enough.
