Mind's Playing Tricks on Me
I see it now I'm my own worst enemy Gotta question if my closest really frenemies Going crazy, insane, fault of the anxious brain I make up for it but fail to conceal the pain Can't ever do or be enough, yea my bar's high Afraid to pull-up, because limits don't define the why's Self sedation just to snooze on my troubles Alarms open my eyes, they've magnified and doubled All the double standards, others versus me Emotional reasoning births false catastrophe But I should challenge it right? It's like a challenge to fight, all the negativity to find the inner me Feeling fraudulent with no brain, not as smart as they claim, Numerical marks were my claim to fame Progress, no longer quantifiable Got me thinking my come up is partially deniable Used to streaks of luck, but hardships are getting back Impatiently waiting for the day it all gets snatched away Do whatever I can just to try and deal Rolling over and up, to hide the way I feel Life is passing me by, as the clock ticks As I endlessly battle my mental, the David Blaine of tricks