( @miraecles ) ‹ ∕ asked … › “ 👀” DIRTY THOUGHTS MEME : // “ACCEPTING”
she remembers how luna rocked her. she remembers the warrior’s voice crashing over her like waves. at the time the rhythm only brought her calm. it’s not until later, much later, that it occurs to her to imagine something more. by then it’s too late. the ground is burned &_ she’s floating above it, back up in that tin can. but raven has never been one to forget, so after one too many cups of algae beer her blood is singing in her veins &_ she settles on memories of luna.
she imagines feeling that rhythm again, slow &_ constant. she imagines luna’s voice surrounding her, just as it did then. raven wonders what she would say... would it be more prayers in trigedasleng, making this into a form of worship? would it be curses &_ heady words? or would she be quiet? raven doesn’t want to imagine her being quiet. the mechanic tries to recreate luna’s rhythm with her own fingers, picturing luna as the one touching her. she imagines luna’s body around her’s, her easy confidence &_ assurance that she could guide raven through this just as she guided her through rage. it’s not enough really. it’s not enough to quiet her mind or to make her forget, but it is enough to make her cum.
raven doesn’t cry out when it happens: that’a a luxury she doesn’t have up here. walls are thin &_ vents carry sound. instead the feeling washes over her &_ leaves the same way it came: in silence. when it’s gone, raven’s stomach churns &_ she doesn’t feel any better. she doesn’t feel at peace the way she did in luna’s arms. instead of dwelling on it she rolls off her cot, onto her feet. if this won’t quiet her mind maybe going over the specs for the nuclear thermal rockets will.
