#misc: tbd

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is there any interest in me putting together a tutorial on how i edit with camera raw in photoshop

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well that was a near 30min long panic attack.

i have no idea why i did what i did. but i did. i said to both officers that i had just simply now "found the courage" but i don't think that's true. i don't think i found my courage at all. i just think, for some reason, i was just able to do it today. to remind them that in 2013, when i reported my ex for his [sexual] abuse, they followed up with the wrong guy (my mother's ex husband).

i have no idea why i did it. i don't know why i'm dragging this all up now. maybe it's because i keep seeing what i see in the news and online, and want to bring power to my voice. maybe it's because i'm already suing a hospital for transphobia, and want to keep using that voice while i have it.

i wish i knew, truly, what provoked me to make that call today. but i don't have those answers. i just know i was able to do it - and as much as i regret making those two phones call, i don't regret the freedom this could bring me. the release and possible closure i've needed all these years.

i really don't know why i did it. it wasn't courage. but i did it. and i'm here now.

so what the fuck do i do now except wait.

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absolutely sobbing rn (affectionate). friend's bail goal has been reached & their partner is on their way to the bonds office. thank you so much for helping make this happen<3

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@ anon: are u looking for another rec of sorts?

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